Monday, September 27, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Lost and Found.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Ouch.
I miss her extremely bad already and I'm so worried about where she would be right now. She must be really home-sicked already. Come home soon girl girl, I miss you. :(
Monday, September 20, 2010
Devil.
Today, someone told me not to focus on what I don't have, but rather on what I have. I stopped and ponder on what my dear friend has told me, its so true. Really? Is that the way to live life in abundance? But sometimes its tough, because what you don't have, you want it badly. How hard would you fight for what you want?
I'm sad and disappointed. I can tell that day by day, you get worst. Feels like you're into some sort of crazy vicious cycle. But at the least of everything, I feel like there's life injected into you. What you want to do with your life, is your decision. I hope at the end of the day, you wouldn't regret.
I didn't chose like you, I did not give up when the going got tough. I hung in there to be the same old me. Even if there aint anything going on between us, I still wanted you to see me good and well. I didn't want you to worry about anything.
But whatever it is, whatever you chose to do, things seemed to go a whole lot better. I sense motivation and some joy about something I'm not exactly sure of. It seems like thing are starting to make sense for you. And I'm happy for you.
Though for so long I've tried and failed to be able to do this, I'm just glad someone that came into your life helped.
Now, I feel like its for the kill. Don't lose it, don't lose the momentum, its building up. And I'm so much on the edge. Go for the kill, take your train and smash into me and make me dead. I'm meant to die earlier, kill my heart. Because to hold on for some unknown reason to too tough for me.
That cup of tall javachip is really going to keep me up for awhile.
Is this a test? A test of faith? A test of the strength of you in me? I just can't erase that feeling I had of you at first sight. And I know its that you that made my heart flutter. Now, its too one-sided, we lost the romantic element.
My wild mind gave a thought last night, if I lose myself to be like you, could I win you back?
Its been long since I've seen you sane, surely you have found what you wanted and needed. Silently pleased for you.
And for me, to take a leap of faith to get my ass of that very edge of yours.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Snugg.
Friday, September 17, 2010
30days.
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Punched.
Thursday, September 09, 2010
Jobrux.
I'm starting to feel tired and wanting to fall asleep.. But random thoughts kept me thinking of what could and could have been.
And it is indeed a point in your life where many things start changing dramatically, where many thoughts and relationships transit into something more complex and yet distant. Its a mixed feeling of happiness and upset when I think about many friends who left to do their study. Oka is leaving on sunday morning, and I will miss him dearly.
Sometimes, I feel that its a point of time when your life is taking a big 180. And can I say, I'm running out of my teenage years?
But surprising comes a thought, that love is redundant. I find myself foolish to try so hard at times, to be true and harsh to myself. Because you never find love, love walks to you. Babe, I'm born to be a player man! So I better be a darn good one!
Not soon before long, I won't have the days that I had. And I will surely do my best to achieve again. I will do best to keep you aside, for I'm not deserved to be missed by you.
Bites back, the toughest decision to make in life is always the hardest one.
I guess its a indication, an omen to move on and pursue personal legend. Really? Will the whole world conspire to help you win, this?
Monday, September 06, 2010
Victus.
I'm so glad for Tiger that he shot a solid 65 and make the cut. I realise that whatever he's done, he's still that childhood idol of mine. What he have done is indeed ugly, but is there anything else he can do to make things right. Its tough, but I'm glad he tried to have his wife back.
That labrador guide dog is so cute! I wish I could have a huge labrador who could live happily with bambi. Quite impossible for now, and I know bambi is selfish enough for me to keep all my love for her. She's so petty, but irreplaceable forever. :)
And yeah, sharapova kicked ass 6-0, 6-0!
Now you see what happens when you're too free?
Botin is taking forever to come back, I'm going to start twitting!
Work is ending in 45mins or so.. I shall indulge in my da vinci. Gym, shopping and going the distance with oka later!
Miss ATEAM already although we just met over the weekend for kayu and baby! EXPENDABLES is the fucking best!!! My favorite show of all time! I'm going to watch it every other day! Testosterone booster!!!
Ciao!