Ooh Ooh Baby,

oh precious love!

christmas was quite a blast after all! it got me so exhausted and now we're planning for NYE. its quite crazy sick. 

i love training, i realized how much training has already become a part of me. as much as training is supposed to be torturous, i feel weird when there's no training. i feel like i have nothing to do, i feel like i lost some purpose to life. ridiculous as it sounds, i really think this way. 

i love training because it keeps my mind away from everything. okay, maybe not all. but i really love it because i can work the other side of my brain and stop whatever the other is hogging on. 

i realized that it has always been my bad. sometimes i really wish to turn back time and make things right. the best part of it all now, i realized i lost you. oh well, well-deserved. 

its crazy how much i can actually miss someone. i miss you like mad now, and there's nothing i can do to contain all my eagerness to see you. fuck, i really wish i could do something to fly myself to you. i miss you, i miss you, i miss you so badly.

gym tomorrow, i make the best out of it. 

can 2009 be better? 

I'm Twisted.

X'Mas gathering with ESG and the other guys awhile ago! man, we always have fun cause we can never stop the talking and the cocking. what's worst, we met at sakura for dinner. you know how bad things get when a group of guys meet up for such buffets. anyway, we simply whacked anything that caught our eye. like the freaking peking duck, frozen strawberries, pastries and whatnots. 

i'll get the pictures up another day! too lazy now.. 

Christmas is just around the corner! exciting as it is supposed to be, i'm not THAT excited. so sad. but its alright cause i'm sure the next two days would be sexciting enough for me. meeting huiwen, how honorable that is! 

i'm just going to go high. enjoy your fucking X'Mas man! 

some mistakes are meant to be made. mistakes can turn out beautiful or ugly. it really depends on perception. it was just so impossible, 

i didn't know how torn apart i was until i met your eyes. 

i think, i just want to love someone who appreciates myself more than i do. 

an Assistant.

DAYS WITH KIDS :D

helping out at the camp with the kids was totally fun and tiring! though it was cheap labour and an underpaid thing, i was more than contented teaching and guiding the kids to a 'proper' golf swing and etiquette. it was so much fun trying to converse in their language, so much fun when they tried joking with me and taking everything i said for real. 

kids are so innocent, but they're so pampered nowadays. (N) some are so lovable, but some deserves a tight slap. 

cute or not, you decide! 

Day 1.

        Favorite Boy (Day 1)- Kenneth

Day 2.

Favorite Boy (Day 2)- Darron

Day 3.

Favorite Boy (Day 3)- Maximus

Favorite Boy (Day 3)- Kyle

i bet you'll agree that they're freaking cute right! 

:D

Black's.

other than training, and more training, i can't think of a better way to really describe my life now. 6 times a week ball training and i still have to squeeze some time for golf! i'm not really complaining. in fact, i'm enjoying the process. the process in being a better player. but the aftermath, is a really sore body and injuring my knees again. 

the truth is, i'm really afraid of overstraining the knees and making the ligament problem worst. ironically, i cant stop training. i want to be part of everything, i dont want to be missing, to be absent when everyone is working their ass off. i have no right to do that. 

all i can do now, is to get some protection and continue with everything. i got a knee stabilizer that nearly cost a $100. some say it looks really exaggerative and i totally agree. it really restricts my movement and i dont like that feeling. but it takes away my pain and keeps my mind at ease. 

one knee vs infinite number of knee guards - you choose. 

i just did my stretching and now i'm icing both dam knees. i had sufficient hours of sleep yesterday and that's why i could stay up blogging. 

double training yesterday was a bit out of mind, but i'm not complaining yet. both teams i take pride for, both i am proud for. so i'm more than happy to train, more than happy to endure the pain together. 

weehoe and macus came over after dinner yesterday and finished my bottle of vodka. macus was a bloody weak shit who claims he wanted to try how it actually felt to be drunk. so he practically drank like a fish, and ended up regretting for whatever he was feeling after that. the worst part of all, he spilled the drink on my bed. thank god that fucker didn't spill the whole thing, if not i wouldn't know how many punches i'll lay on him to wake him up to clear up. 

so macus the real retard knocked himself out before the night even started and ended up sleeping over. on the other hand, i had a real good talk with weehoe. he's been giving me advices and showering me with endless care and concern. for that, i'm totally grateful and i just want to say thank you weehoe. i'm really glad that you found yourself a great girl, and i think you totally derserve someone who loves you as much as you do love her. i hope everlasting love would happen for you! 

how many can find the one they really love? and how many can find the one that's meant for them? how many have enough the patience to take it till they're 30, 35 or even 40 to get married? i'll never have an answer for that, but i'm more than ready to say that less than 50% actually have the one that's meant for them. i'm worried and also excited to know who i can have as my wife. isn't it too early to even think about this? i totally agree. but Julian is a boy who likes to think about everything. 

yes, being love partners need fate and patience. and you'll never know when you're find the one you love, not until you dare to love again. but something else that many people forsake or take it lightly is the friendship you share with someone close to your heart. why so few, so little people talk about friends that could connect to them. 

for me, i'm really proud and glad to have a friend like weehoe around me. we dont meet very often, we dont have to meet everyday. but we know we'll be there for each other no matter what. its more than unconditional love. i really cant explain how much at ease i am when i'm with him. i'm just so glad i have him in my life and like love, i'll never want to lose something like that. i hope i take all these into my grave, because one thing for sure, i'll never be more than grateful for someone like you. thank you bro. 

enough of the cheesy mushy words. 

budd and i went to catch KM31 just now! and it isn't that good, i dont recommend it. the scare cannot match up to .REC, though KM31 is also a NC16-Spanish show. maybe because its not as realistic as .REC that's why i find it a bit ridiculous at times. and, the plot is a bit messy and draggy that i almost fell asleep. 

what i recommend is Body of Lies. that show is dam worth the money. its about terrorism and the god dam threat is so real that i could feel it. then came the Mumbai Bombing which made me feel like everything in the show had happened. tell me how strong these terrorist are. the sad thing about this show is, its NC16. so.. all the infants below 16, sorry you have to miss this great show. Leonardo Dicarpio is fucking cool, beyond cool! 

budd and i were talking and we realized how quickly time past for us. not long ago, i was still excited about life in VJ. and now, i'm thinking about preparing for my A's. JC life is totally fast-paced and you need to have plans and aspirations and constant hard work to keep up with the expectations. for me, i had a great deal of struggle to get to where i am. others breezed through the year and did better than me. is it unfair? not to me, because i know i have other strengths. so.. live with it!

anyway, here comes my long awaited December. i promised budd a month ago to start studying when its December. as i said how quickly time flies, its December now! and i kind of regret making this promise. but i'll still try to start because its for my own good. i dont want to do bad for the R's and start the year badly. i remembered my promised to a more accomplished 2009. budd, let me be a good influence. haha! 

AHS Sports Class gathering this friday and i'm totally looking forward to it. all the friends and the endless catch ups to cover. the BBQ that they always loved me for the satay man, and huiwen starting the fire. so glad tracy made the effort to initiate this meet up so everyone could enjoy! thanks tracy! 

although everyday's filled with trainings, i just want to say i'm not missing out all the good in life! MJ once in awhile, going out for lunch and dinners, a few movies, a few chilling sessions, PRAWNING! and other nonsensical stuff has keep my holiday a little more exciting. no holidays this time, totally committing to my training. 

oh did i forgot to mention i'm working to get some quick cash this Dec. i'm going to some golf camp to help out as a golf assistant. excited to interact with the kids! 

senior's farewell after training tomorrow. bet we'll have more than fun during steamboat. and.. more singing to come!! 

goodnight! 

i don't dare to love again.