flash point.

this feels so funny. suddenly, many things just makes me realise how old i am. like i'm doing my o levels which means my secondary school life is over. this makes me feel a little saddd...

the amaths paper today was alright. okay, this does not mean like i'm definitely going to get an A1. but i definitely feel better than prelims. again, this does not mean that i'm satisfied today, i feel that i should do better later for my paper 2. been talking to friends online, asking about the maths paper, wow, many said it was relatively easy. well, i wish i had the courage and confidence to say so. haha.

i'm just done doing a little studying and going to sleep soon.

ying messaged me just now, telling me good luck for my o's. and all of a sudden, i realised it's my turn this time. i could still remember wishing her best of luck for her o's last year. and it just feels like yesterday. and right now, i still couldn't face reality that i'm actually doing my o's.

hah, enough of my hoo-haa. well, i'm a grown-up now.

the o's been a mixed blessing. i'm saw people becoming serious with work and i saw some that simply didn't care. some took it seriously, some took it lightly, consoling themselves its just a small thing in life. but what made me disgusted, is when i see the selfish side of people. when i see people fighting only for themselves, giving me another kind of impression. well, not like i'm a perfect guy. but just stating some facts and observations that i've made.
in actual fact, it might be a good thing. cause we get to see our friends more throughly and who knows, friendship might get stronger like this.

its heart-warming to have people sending me good luck messages. i hope they were sincere :)
well, i'm glad that everyone's concerned for each other over this exam. and i would just thank those that bothered sending me a msg of luck.

sincerely, all the best to those doing their o's examinations. (Y)

Scrum.

THE O's TOMORROW.
DAM IT, PLEASE STOP ME FROM DAY-DREAMING!


AND....
SOUTH AFRICA's THE WORLD CHAMPIONS!
i feel so sorry for all the Johnny Wilkinson lovers. hahaha. too bad. (N)

walk and go.

i really wonder if you cared for me.

maybe i mean nothing after all.

Jonestown.

I've been trying to study lately. i still cant believe that my O's examinations is right up next week. its so unbelievable.

as usual, Saturday morning was basketball with the seniors. brought Marcus along this time. and it rained! must be Marcus la. lol. anyway, it was quite a waste of time cause it rained after we started playing for an hour or so.

marcus came over to slack and did some work after which. my tuition teacher came at 3, so i chased him out of the room. he took a amaths book out, but i realised that he was sleeping at the couch by 10mins. LOL.

we got to simei after tuition and i got my hamsters! finally, cause they're so dam adorable. okay, i got a male and female. because i want them to mate. hahahah. i want them to have babies. hahaha. its quite expensive because you have to buy a lot rubbish for them. like their bedding, and bath sand. hahaha. actually my hamsters have quite a good life. hahah.

Marc and i got down to my new place, Bedok Reservoir. okay, our plan was to study! and we did. we got a little tired by 12, and went down for supper. initial plan was to come up and watch a show before studying again. but sadly, i fell asleep even before we took disc2 out. haha. cock la, then i wasted my night.

we woke up around 12 on Sunday. haha. then we walked over for brunch. okay this is dam hilarious. i asked Marc what he wanted to have, and he said, "chicken rice lor, see so much people queuing up. " i said, " fine." okay, the queue was about 12 people long. and the progress was so slow..... marc was queueing, and i sat down, ordered drinks and his bean curd. two girls sitting next to me was talking. girl A said, "how come the queue so long for the chicken rice?" B said, "no lah, that long queue is for takeaway, if eating here just tell them what you want.
Me "-.-" went over and told Marc and we were like wtfsssXZXZXxszx. we waited like what 20mins? lol. dam stupid.

got back to the house after brunch and then studied again. we got tired and started playing the PS. lol. left at 6 plus and got back to simei. initially i wanted to go back to Pet Safari to change my hamsters, because they don't seem to get along. haha. but the guy explained to me, that they're just new to the environment and so so. so i didn't change them away, because i had some sort of feelings for them already. went to play an hour of lan and had dinner at breeks. nothing fabulous though. got home and slacked. lol. watch Jonestown at 12am. while Marc was also watching at his place. lol.

it was a really good documentary. this town in America, some 908 people committed suicide against their will. 300 of which were children. Jonestown was led by Jim Jones, and he was an eccentric retard, he was similar to Hitler.

Jim Jones, leader of Jonestown.

he had all the phones, radios and televisions all destroyed. the people living inside had no communications to outside Jonestown. and Jonestown is situated in the middle of the jungle, hence it was dam tough for anyone to escape. besides, Jim Jone's' man were located almost everywhere with arms. Jim Jones is god dam sick. cases of residents that committed suicide inside Jonestown, raised the awareness of the welfare committee of the US. where they sent congressmen to investigate whether the residents were happy staying in Jonestown. but Jim Jones totally brainwash them with propaganda, or i would say a cult. they residents had to rehearse many times about what they had to say to the congressmen when interviewed. some said, " it was the best thing that has happened in their life, because in Jonestown you get everything" they even had to smile, it was so disgusting, cause they were forced to say all these, if not they'd get murdered. the congressmen came and investigate, realizing that many are happy (which actually they are not), but there are also many that wanted to leave (known as defectors). when the congressmen left, they brought about 20 defectors away on a small airplane. while they were boarding the plane, Jim Jones sent his men to murder the congressmen and defectors. it was fucking sick and sad. after that firing session which killed almost all was complete, Jim Jones again managed to talked "sense" into the rest staying in Jonestown. he said the congressmen were liars and never to believe what they said. and the defectors were betrayers. since they (Jonestown) were betrayed, why not everyone die since its such a horrible place. he had his men prepared a fruit drink while inside, its mixed with all sorts of poison. like cyanide. he had the children take the drink, influencing the people that its just taking a fruit drink. the children died first, then the adults had to consume that "fruit drink", those who refused were forced to take the jab. either way, you have to DIE.

look at that mess. all 908 that died from taking "fruit drink".

after everyone took the poison, Jim Jones shot himself in the head and died from a single gunshot wound in his head. because of him, 908 people died. its so dam sick. i cant believe it, at the same time, i feel for the people living then. their environment infiltrated with propaganda, no communication and within them were friends who were holding guns pointing inwards. everyone had no choice, they were all destined to lay their life down. its so terrifying.

right now at this point of time, there's no one that can do anything other than sympathizing with them. so sad, i hope they can rest in peace.

DegreeC.

i'm so irritated about how 'well' i did for my prelims. got a fucking 14. like wtffffffff. okay, actually i was aiming for 12. so not very very far away. but i was so mad about using too many b3s. why is my amaths always the lowest... hahaha. i dont understand.... i was quite prepared this time. nevertheless, its a bigCCCCC. hahaha.

last few days in school was really boring, i must say. those who couldn't hit 12points should stay and study. instead of making use of chances to speak to teachers, everyone's just wasting their time. okay, not everyone, maybe most. the only thrilling part of it is thinking about how we are going to skip classes. oh, and we had the company of the hamsters! so it wasn't that bad after all. freaking hamsters dam adorable. but i pity them, cause they have no life. its so sad that they're a living thing, yet can't chose what they really want to have and do in life.

tuesday, Cy and i left school at around 12plus. he went to Dhoby, i went to Orchard. got there to collect my pants, then met oka and walked around the usual Far East Mall. had a hard time deciding where to have lunch. in the end, settled down at Mos Burger at Shaw. Mr. Oka as usual, ate and hunt. oh wtf.
as soon as i was done getting my stuffs, rushed back to school to study. i planned to study from 5pm and 9pm. and yep, in the end, managed to do it. met yuhua and weehoe in school. (Y) had some sort of a good time.
after our study, we walked down to 85 for dinner. where we met Cy. obviously he didn't agree studying with us in school. he chose to better spend his time by working at his auntie's chicken rice stall. C'MON, YOUR EXAMS IS NEARING! while we were about to order our food, weehoe realize he lost his wallet and he panicked and ran back to school. a wasted trip back to school made him lost all his whatever humongous appetite.
luckily he found his wallet the next day. someone actually found it and threw it back into our classroom. i wonder who that person would be. lol.

wednesday was Chakravarathy Golf Classic. got to Sembawang Country Club around 10.50am to do some warm-up. where i met this new friend, Aza. haha. i actually met him at Far East the day before where i bought my golf balls. so... ONE NEW FRIEND. :) haha.
lunch started at 11.30am. some sort of buffet serving chicken rice. quite tasty though.
just before we're about to set off to start our game, it rained. can you believe it? it actually rained. everyone in the east, may i ask if it rained? it didn't right? it fucking rained at Sembawang, the area that i'm playing my golf. the rain just drained all my mood. ZzZ. its dam sickening to play in the rain, ESPECIALLY in commando course Sembawang. golfers should know why. the freaking layer of sunblock that i actually applied on my face was wasted. argh.. so dam irritating. cause i hate to wear that layer of protection lotion.
it became worst when i played a 9 on my first hole. (N) the day just went on and we couldn't finish the game in time as we started at 3pm where the rain finally stopped.
oh it was quite a lucky day, though i played bad, i won a novelty. (Y) haha. nearest to pin for 2nd hole. but nothing fabulous, just a cheap wedge.

after the game, we got our way down to Chakravarathy Club. where we had darn good curry. awesome dinner with drinks. i had GinTonic then beer. which shouldn't be the way. but who cares since i'm not driving. got home around 10plus, watched tv and then slept.

now i'm awake and blogging. hehe. going down to the Skin Centre to get my fucking viral wart out of my toe. okay, my appointment is at 2pm, i haven't bathed and i'm still blogging but who cares cause i'm going to tell you all about this wart. argh.. the doctors had no idea of how the wart appears and why it appears. the only thing they know is it is caused by virus. its very common with teenagers and kids. so now i have one on my toe, and i'm so glad that i spoke to the doctor about it, lest it spreads to my other toes and have 5,6,7,8 or even 10! hahaa.
so the doctor recommended me for liquid nitrogen treatment, where its the cheapest and least painful treatment. MEANING THERE'LL STILL BE PAIN. i was scared like shit la. hahah.
first they'll use this surgical blade to scale it to the deepest. and then use the liquid nitrogen to blast the wart. okay, the shit that they sprayed is -190 degreeC. its supposed to freeze the wart and so it's destroyed. i was asking the nurse whether my whole toe would drop out instead. i think my Dad was thinking when he got such a gay son. lol.
so i suffered through the frozebite, and i have to go for that so sickening treatment later. argh..

meeting yuhua or weehoe to go back to school to study later. man, its going to be conducive! i'm sure! :D

i'm running late, will blog another time. take care everyone.