Felt This Way.

we finally finished the quarters and won ourselves a place in the semis. i can't believe how things have changed, how everything is going away from me, how much we have walked together as a team, i simply can't believe it. 

guys, i just want to say, i love everyone of you with the whole of my heart and i appreciate all your effort and commitment into this team. when i look back, the memories are simply splendid, unforgettable and it never fails to put a smile on my face. it never fails to warm my heart. 

i know it is about how much we want this guys, and i have every faith and confidence in each of you and as team i know we can achieve perfection. your efforts are not wasted, lets end our season with an icing on the cake. lets do the best we can on wednesday. 

you know i really give up, because it always hurts to look back. 

i always thought i could forget. i kept trying, but i kept failing. i go beyond my desperate breathe for you, but i only get choked and suffocated. it hurts so bad, i really want to quit. i really wish there was no you, there was no hope. there wasn't any hope i could linger on, i could live on for. 

i know its impossible, but i keep convincing myself, only to find a broken hearted. i guess i never learn. 

i never had to feel that way, i never had to feel empty after a win. it always seem that there's someone out there who truly feels happy for you, who celebrates with your heart, someone who awaits a victory hug, someone who knows how much everything meant. it's painful to feel this way now, and i hope it only makes me stronger. frequency reduces the pain, but i asked myself, how many of these chances am i left with. 

sometimes i feel like there's no getting through to you,

like you don't appreciate all that i do. 

you need to show me that you want me to stay,

don't turn and walk away.

i'm falling out of love.