Mcgregor.

in HK now! well, things are alright here. i'm trying to enjoy every minute i have here.

the hotel room we have is freaking small. after putting down our golf bags and luggage, we hardly have any space to move! like seriously cramped up! but its kinda cozy and fun like this... but... if someone stinks or have anything that stinks, we definitely can smell it. including your after-shit smell in the toilet. but of course we have our own ways and means to keep the sweet smell away!

today's first round of the tournament. i played alright, 75 on a par 70 course. just quite disappointed when i 3 putted 17th and 18th. :(
oh and i have to say that the course's really beautiful because its on a mountain top! we're playing by the ocean and its really nice! wish i could post some pictures, but i'm really lazy to do all these. maybe when i get too free.
though its on the mountain top and supposedly windy and chilling, its freaking hot! omg, i think HK now is warmer than s'pore. now i'm all red and my skin really hurts!

haven't done any shopping so far. well, i haven't seen much that appeals to me. hopefully we're get to somewhere that's great! and.. we're going for golf shopping in 10mins time, after blogging this.

i really miss a lot of people in s'pore! especially... mm.....

SUSPENSION.

hope you're fighting hard on the other side bro..

<3

Slides off..

if you can, please revelate everything to me. because it all seems unreal and unfair.

i know i need to face reality. well, i know i need to be stronger than you. please persevere no matter what, like you said, we'll go rock-climbing one day. i wont lose faith yet, i still cling onto hopes of miracle and hopes of us doing everything together. i know its still possible, as long as we have faith in each other. so no matter what, you cannot give up, because its not fair to you, not fair to everyone else.

it pains my heart, so bad so bad. to see you suffer and go through all these torture that no one ever predicted, ever foresee. its just plain unluckiness, and why? why? why? why?!! why has it have to fall on you.. why on someone who does not deserve anything like this. dont tell me even the One up above is jealous of someone so kind and caring towards me. it just does not make sense at all.

its impossible to tell me dont think so much and anything else, cause its stuck at the back of my head. but i do appreciate those who lend me a shoulder to cry over, a ear to listened to, those who took time off to come down for a visit, and even those who send a msg to cheer me up. i really apprecaite those concerns.

thanks for being there for me.

flying off to HK later at 1.30pm. hopefully everything goes smoothly..

i am going to pack my luggage and golf bag. should i go school tomorrow? or can i wake up in time..

i hate heart-to-heart talk. fuck it.

ESG (trademark)

by the way, ESG = East-Side Gang (something i treasure and am proud of!)

i'm still perspiring after cycling back from Changi Village! we left school around 7.35pm and took approx. 2hours before reaching Changi Village. the journey was fucking long and tough, but mainly cause we decided to take parts of the highway which cut the planned journey shorter.

we fought many things along the way, this included Bee Fool going missing and got stuck at the bus stop because of his bicycle seat problem. thank goodness he bought a spanner along! hahahah. then we cycled down to Tanah Merah where we met alex to pass him his handphone. we then took on upp changi road and then abit of ECP/TPE before reaching Loyang. after fighting the speedy cars on the highway, the toughest part comes along.. cause Loyang is basically uphill..

we did it by changing our gears to the easiest and also by screaming and moaning a lot on the way up. but before we got to the peak of everything, the encouragements and the thought of the rewards ( after uphill, its always downhill! xD + our dinner! ) simply got us moving. the downhill part was indeed brilliant, no words to describe the satisfaction you derive after your hardwork paddling uphill.

things weren't smooth-sailing all the way. while we were going downhill, marcus fell due to some bump he didn't prepare himself for. i was at his tail-end so when he fell i was like WTF and then @#*Y*Q@&%^#$(!^%$(#!@$&*#Q$^(&@#*^$)(!!!!!!!!!!!!! marcus crashed and i had to jam break where i kinda flew off my bike but end up still standing up. marcus got really bad wounds, and i mean it. lucky me only got a small cut.

it took us approx.25-30mins from Loyang to Changi Village. by the time we got our asses there, we were fucking hungry and couldn't wait to get our hands on the food we deserved!

Bee Fool and marcus cabbed home with their bikes at the boot. ( Bee Fool was too exhausted and marcus was injured ) Fauzan, JY, Liang and i was around 60-70% effort on my way back and they turn to Pasir Ris after Loyang and i headed straight for home.

today was really a day of fun! feeling fab is amazing, as long as you put in effort in whatever you are doing, i'm sure you'll surely find it fun! i was allocated kick-boxing in the morning where i thought it was stupid at first. but i decided to be enthu and just do it. hahaa, and i really had a lot of fun doing at the end! though it was tiring and i perspired a lot, i was feeling FABOULOUS!

then i went over to crash rock-climbing! i saw people climbing it and failing, and i was like freaking scared. ahhaha, okay abit gay but thats cause i've never done anything like that before. besidees, i didn't trust the safety measures taken, it was like just so-so, but since everyone said it was safe, i was like okay..
getting my ass up on those rock walls was simply exciting and i'm glad i had this opportunity to try something new! rock-climbing is not easy at all and it requires more than what you simply see!

went on crashing everything else that was possible, such as sitting in a LT trying to learn magic which actually sucks and is a waste of time. lol. and.. GO-KART was fucking fun. can you believe it? they actually made a in-house circuit!! although its a little short and boring, buy it brought me enough fun. i love this feeling, its just so thrilling! and it brought me a hell lot of satisfaction. (okay, you'll only get this part if you talked to me about it).

so, i basically love feeling fab and i dont think you're smart if you think its a PON day. hahaha. find joy in everything you do man! even its not your priority choice.

oh, and congratulation clarice that your taiwan buddy has gone back. now you have peace in everything you do! haha, give her hell when you get there at the end of the year. hah, all the way!

Cousin's in hospital now and i cant believe this. my closest actually have to go through all these, this is so impossible. i cant face reality, because this is not fair. i rather i'm the one suffering, cause a good guy dont derserve all these. tell me, how do i concentrate for everything and anything.. tell me how to leave in peace..
it hurts me so bad inside, i cant even tear anymore. a part of me is so sure that he'll recover, but another part of me is so insecure and i cant imagine what i'll do if he doesn't recover. i'll do anything for him to recover. i pray and hope and wish and would give up anything for him to be normal.
i'm sorry bro, for not doing everything you wanted to do. you must be strong and recover and i promise i'll take you anywhere you wana go. :(

yes, it may be cliche for me to say that one only cherish the other when he/she's gone. but honestly, this really hit on me badly and i can see so many of my relationships with others that i can improve on. and i really dont wana experience anything like this again with someone around me.

do you know you really made me think very hard, and you really hurt me. i find it so hard to tell you all these because it might not matter to you anymore. but i really want you to know certain things, i really want you to know how i feel. i never thought things would become like that, and now whenever i think about it, it upsets me. it affects me, it makes me think, it makes me feel so wasted and it even makes me disgusted at times.

looking at the bigger and clearer picture, yes you're right by sacrificing me for others. you took the safe bet and listened to others, rather than taking the risk with me. but i'm just disappointed in you, that you chose to take on something that leads you and i to nowhere. you chose to let go of something i always loved and something i always cherished. can you tell me, with all the efforts i've put in, do i deserve anything like this?

right now, i have nothing to say anymore. its not that i'm jealous or whatsoever, but you basically forced me to have a okay-i-dont-care attitude. i really hate to put up with this and have to act like i dont care. seriously if we clique, why must we even care about others? like wtf, i really cannot believe that it could actually affect our friendship. the efforts i've put in are not appreciated, to shut the fucking mouth of others. really, do we even need to care?

i'm sad i cannot deny, because you actually mean to me. it'll take awhile for me to get over this, but i'm sure it wouldn't be long. friends like you are hard to find, so i really dont want to lose you. and i hope you wouldn't change for the sake of others, even if they're your best. i still love the old you..

leaving for HK soon, i hope things will settle down a little before i leave.

tennis /babys(:

my new addiction is tennnis! hahahahhaa, so freaking fun, tell me how to stop thinking about it.

cycle to school adventure journey was successful without any casualties. and it was freaking fun as well! but my ass hurt like mad i could feel like my ass has gone out of its sexy shape.. we're going to plan another one back next week, omg cant wait cant wait!
Dam sick, Dam sick, DDDDDaaaaaMMMMMMM sickkkkkk....................................!

was supposed to meet wx to study but i woke up at 1.45pm. sorry i psed...... hahahhaa. and was supposed to go prawning at 4.30 but now its cancelled! :( my turn to kena ps... hahahhaha.

well, got plan B now. meet mac, bui and julique for MJ. LOL, but for now... i'm heading off to go study/muggerdog/cuppacup first!!!!!!

i have a TFFF/FFFF (Y):D(Y):D(Y):D(Y), hope it's for a lifetime..