Drained.

Good to see Botin! out hunting for her craving onetonnemee and finally got it at geylang when our beloved beachroad prawnmee was closed on tuesday. then went to 126 for my favourite dimsum which she claimed that she was too full but still had as much as me haha. then we head down to sbc to catch the guy's game. met up with many armyboiss and everyone who just went through bmt has like stagnant life. its not very happening in there, it only makes you talk about tekong non-stop.

Anyway, game over and rained non-stop. so we chilled at the court do shit, talk cock. then went to have macus' craving fish and chip western stall. forced macus to diary of wimpy kid and succeed. had not as delicious as yami and frolick yoguru and j-bridged. then back home. so soon, and you're going back again botx!

Finally had some break after friday's paper at airport, almost died studying for it the whole week. can't believe that after so much been's done, there's still a whole lot to go. sometimes i stop and reconsider and it hurts to think back. this stress eats into you.

Geylang that night with ben and kc. had awesome frogridge and beefhorfun. sat there and drank though i drove i don't know wtf i drank and had durian to investigate whether the myth about durian and beer mixed will get you vomitting. we didn't and went for selegie tauhuay. ordered and reject the delicious looking egggtart and felt bad. was super full and was tempted to for ktv. so we head down to grandlink for cheap thrill and enjoyed tremendously. though its sleeezy and smelling, we had our good fun and god i miss going to ktv. got home late and loved that night. totally unwind stress.

Then golf with oka on monday morning and the everysofaraway kranji that took me 30mins of drive, thats really very far. and played a satisfied round despite my ultra lack of practice. fucking feel the hunger for competition again, fucking want to practice and kick some ass but time is running out... the itch is growing, yet i can't do anything about it. talk about interest and talent. and i'm sooo sad tiger didn't win, i just thought this title was for him.

Back to flying again tomorrow and burn whole day. suddenly i just want to enjoy my remaining days with this hair and freedom. i dont want my ic to be confiscated, not yet man.

Getting ready to move on man.

Tell me whether its a good thing for what we've been through. cause it keeps haunting me, and i want to keep it away but its always so tough. this feeling just builds on itself and it just keeps getting overwhelming. i wish i could stop it. its really too good a past, sometimes i neglect the present and live on that memory. wish i could backtrack sometime and reconsider. but hell, no such thing man.

Babe, is there really such a thing called the fate tune? because i totally believe you.

One Shot One Kill.

I didn't make it again. and indeed, it is my last chance. and if i screw up, then all, i mean all of my efforts would have gone to a waste. though experience is invaluable, but that would mean that i cannot achieve my ultimate aim, and my plan failed. yes, i am pushing myself to the line. sometimes i ask myself whether i am an idiot.

But i have no time, to even think about all this. i only have myself now, to make this all right again. and i want to make this right, right on track.

One last try, and if i fail, i'll be devastated.

Why are people always giving expectations. stupid expectations. and they always assume for people to behave and perform they want people to. then just because they want things their way, they compromise in what they believe or the way people naturally are. sometimes i just want to say a big fuck you. i don't see a need to convince you, if you have doubts in me.

And why is time running shorter. i wish i had more time to spend with you. day by day, i am suffocated just to get what i want. but its okay.

Bangkok was fun with hoe and mum. food was as awesome as always. and mmm.. sometimes are so freaky true my hair stands.

Guess, i'll vanish from the world again. still miss you as always.