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If only everyday could be like today, or something like today. i wake up, and i do what i want. i see the people i want, and i get to spend time with people that means the most to me.

Isn't control = MRT? sorry wen, i really had to say it. haha!

The weather was so fucking good for what we wanted, but it didn't last long after all. though it was a false alarm, we had a good share of the sun on our face. brothers will forever be brothers. there is a cause, we share the same ideas and we think the same way. 99% of the time, we will cmi the same girl. nice.

And great, because your bowling improved! now you've got some tips from the master, make sure you perform better in front of someone else okay. see i so brave (you know what i mean ^^), do something to show me you can too!

It feels good to win money, and then to split with my mother. 35x3 wtf! i wish i'll have the ability in the future. to do more than enough, to earn more than enough, to share with my mum and love. its a sense of satisfaction, it feels like an achievement, it should be an obligation.

My mother dam onz, ask me for movie on sunday night again. she say she want to watch Rain (Ninja Assassin). when she told me i stun, nothing to say. but of course, i gladly say okay, great, lets go for a date again. pretty please, no more hanky panky beside us this time.

5 minutes from Bedok Reservoir is no fun. it is one hell of a danger, i almost killed myself. i'm so sorry babe! i really really really really really didn't mean to be so so so late. your understanding and graciousness means a lot to me. i know you would have blamed yourself if i got myself killed. oh wells, time to visit the workshop.

Sometimes i really don't understand. if there was so much to be said, why don't you talk to yourself instead. you're like a land mine, you explode when someone's near your proximity. you're an headless rat, you dig dig and dig non stop without directions. and you say sorry when you dig something not yours. game on.

I know its a glimpse. i know whatever you've been through, i don't talk to you, but i feel you. your reaction to me, i understand. but please give me a chance to even share everything with you. in the first place, i don't feel that good. and there's something we share about this. the fact that i burn to see, is my fact for you. feels like a losing cause, and yes i know how wild this is, but i'm willing to take you on. tell me why, no no no no no no no.

I don't know why but only now that i understand why people have dreams of having a happy family. and i realized, its something i want badly. not that mine is a very tragically sad one, but i just want to treat my wife right, and i want to be there for her. god, i wish things would be right.

I want to talk about you, but i can't. i want to speak to you, but i can't. i want to see you, but i can't.

B-Girl!

SWEETHEART YOU ARE SO CUTE AND I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH, ESPECIALLY AFTER YOU BATHE YOU MAKE ME WANT TO KISS YOU! I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU LOVE! <3

Regime.

Miss HK days!

Chem totally sugs today. but i should forget about it. i should i should i should. its over and there's nothing i can do about it! same old excuse for every paper...

But i should take something positive from it, and it is another paper down and only one left!

Nevertheless, life begins for me.

Well, i think it began a couple of days before already. everyone's starting to party! because almost everyone around me has plans already, only those poor physics that has paper 3. i didn't lose out, because i met my mum instead! and i still had helluva fun. my mum's turning 50 soon, but she's still young at heart i swear.

How many of you have a mum that can still laugh at the jokes you make. and i mean, all the time! and the best part, i laugh at her. i laugh at her english, i laugh when she makes stupid mistakes and when she says dumb things. in the end, we laugh together. HAHA.

Right, so i asked for steamboat and we went to somewhere near rangoon for it. then i asked to date her to a movie. and we did! caught 2012 and i think its such a appropriate movie to watch with your mum. because she gave life to me, and we watch the world end together. wait.. is there really a link.

The best part is a couple an empty seat away from my mum was making out. seriously like wtf. they chose a seat next to the aisle and make out. my mum dam distracted, keep looking and keep asking me to look cause the guy touching the girls boobs. but i not interested cause i think that couple dam disgusting. best part is, my mum told me the girl was wanking for the guy. and she was demonstrating the action for me. (Y) PLUS, omg, appreciate someone making out with my mum? ultra wrong? so i prefer to act innocent.

The way the world ended, dam sick, dam sick, really dam sick. like wtf, i was wondering which scene i want to die in? because i confirm cannot be saved one. how to be so hero like that guy, fly across continents and some china guy saved him in the end.

All in all, my mum made my day. sometimes i think if i smoke, i'll be my mummy's best buddy.

Managed to make some time to finally read the papers, and why is everyone dying so randomly. it seems so normal to have an article regarding someone dying without reasons. maybe i might be one of those who die randomly. huiwen remember how i want my funeral to be? you better make it happen.

Everything is destined from the start, the way we started and ended. i don't regret for anything i've done. but it kinda stings, and its a sign of life. but i know death is coming. and so sorry, everything about you, is out of my life.

New moon is coming out and i can't wait! think i'm going to read the book all over again first!

And Djie boy, i wonder if you'll ever find my blog haha! don't be sad anymore! that day talk to me until i almost died, but okay la at least you're happier. be more positive can, there's nothing wrong!

Play some golf and you'll be fine!

Now there's really a lot of things to do. its a matter of which to begin with.

Everything i listen to MJ, i feel sad. why do i always feel sad listening to songs.

I will miss school, i really will. So long.

Square.

A is not good. how come i don't have a good feeling about anything.

Deceit. is it even wrong to think of you.

Time to bid goodbye soon.

With Speed.

A couple more days and its what we've been fighting for. i just want to fight for myself, fight for something i deserve. i don't expect the best, but just what i deserve. thats enough, more than enough for me.

This is really crazy. i don't understand, sleeping makes me feel guilty. it makes you lose appetite, and creates irregular heartbeats. dysjuction of feelings, emotional thoughts and even lead to nervous breakdown.

Is it a must for all these to be put up for truth to hold. i find it a big turn off, i don't want to think and even mention. any degree relation, and i don't recognize, i reject. before time, it was possible, it still taste sweet. but it has turned bittersweet and i rather spit than swallow. so glad for decisions made, and regrets take. for all i know, it's worthwhile and i cannot imagine living hell. to even think of you, its my disuse.

Hardly had a breather. i tried to live without you and its working. everything went by without you, its like you've vanished. and i knew that it could work this way. i find it an awful chore to keep up, because i know it should be effortless. but then again, i know a effort made, will not be appreciated.

I think its a new thing. because my heart skipped a beat. but i'm never too sure, because no hopes harbored. the A's are really coming this time, if you get what i mean again, i mean i follow my heart, and i keep my head down to do my best.

I'm addicted to speed. i use speed to make myself feel better. i'm numb, and i don't want to make a mistake. i know i will regret one day, i can only hope it's nowhere near. i hope i stay disciplined. or rather, i don't ever feel this way again.

Yes, i have to sleep, all for the better good. because i have to wake 7 hours later, for the routine good. i really hope you push me away.