rearrangement.

long time since i last blogged. didn't have the mood to blog about anything recently.

well, school has been rather boring recently. thats what i thought. i dont know if anyone thought about why are we doing almost the same thing everyday. school, studying, and seeing almost the same people in and out the week.

anyway, my math this term has been rather disappointing. like huiwen said, one more week to the holidays and then the start of term4. i'm going to work hard for term4. its a short term, and also i think i better do well, and then concentrate on other things right after the exams.

i talked to my parents. i feel better, i know whats going on better. no one actually understands you more than your parents, so please please trust them. now, i know what to do, i've got a clearer picture about things. and the best of it all, i know the cause of certain matters.

if we cant be lovers, then we shall be friends. if we cant be close friends, then we shall be friends. if we cant be friends, then lets be classmates, schoolmates or just someone we know. we can still look for help, if we need any in future. i dont want to blow 10candles when i'm only 5years old.
i just thought that you're boring, seriously boring.

i dont know whats up with you. i dont know what you're unhappy about. if you want to understand more, then come to me. didn't i tell you over the phone, instead of being unhappy and stay home and think about shit. really, i think we should understand each other more than enough, that you should trust me. and..... you'll be there i know.
so lets not lie.

huiwen have been great on and off court. its good to see u improving, well, there's nothing to be unhappy about. thats what i thought, realising certain things might just be a blessing in disguise. thanks for accompanying me on friday for match. had a great time shouting with you.

hohoho, sorry chunyong for not able to make it for dinner last night. dadddy brought me out, so i cant make it. i'll make it up to you another day.

sorry guorong too!! i was too tired and couldn't make myself wake up an hour earlier to do the work. anyway, i owe you. and thanks for being understanding, its heart-warming.

yay, its 6/7 this week. great. i'll try to come today, to make it 7/7, our best. anyway, thats not the most important. most important is that, its been weeks and days of happiness instead of our usual. haha. its good like that, and i hope it'll just continue. i didn't jinx it!! we say things we're unhappy about, and then we try to understand instead of making a fuss out of it. let it be like that. Click is like the perfect show. i teared when i saw Micheal ran out of the hospital to find Ben, just to tell him Family First. i learned to treasure and cherish certain people more.

you're most gorgeous.

c boys and girls have match on monday and tuesday. which means, lesser lessons, less stress. good luck to both teams and i hope the girls get the champion.

golf in the afternoon, a sport for me to relax, and also i'll be happy. i dont know why, cause its just pleasant to play, breathe fresh air and bathe in the light of the warmly setting sun.

do whats right.

you dare.

can you just shut the fuck up? what the fuck is wrong with your dam mouth? did i offend you? did i say anything bout yours? stop comparing and think that you're the most perfect thing on earth. you want to talk about it more, you say it in front of me. dont go behind, gossip and compare like some freeking small wimp. u not happy, come take me on. anyway you like. i hear everything you say okay. dont think i'm dumb or some fuck. u said so much shit but i still give face right, but please know your limits. fucker, i hear anything you say again, u watch out. i will fucking beat you up until your mouth tears.

to see what i call players.

had 2.4 on tuesday last week. i came in 7th and k.c 3rd. this is the best in basketball. quite embarrassing to lose to uniform groups. anyway, i'm satisfied with my result and i'm sure i clock below 9minutes. concentration and rhythm's really important. thats crucial for me.
i had a hard time running, it's just pain, everywhere.

me and chunyong went over to andrea's place to gym and swim on national day, but decided not to when we got there, cause there were just too many people at the pool. so we laze around till 6 before watching the NDP. Mr. Gani is great, too great a performer. saw andrea to her grand's place at 8 with alphonse. we got to make sure he got there, ended up andrea stuck in the house too. so me and chunyong got back to bedok ourselves for dinner. we dont blame you! haha.

9th august, thursday. school holiday. met andy and leon at simei at 1pm. couldn't enter raiders lan, so we turned to valley8. chunyong came after a while and we played pool. we saw cally and her friend across table. so leon got turned on upon seeing that friend. hahaha. that friend got turned on too, so she called leon over for a game. haha. it was dam funny. nevermind. left after 3games, we headed down to peninsula and met andrea. went to look for shoes and walked down to suntec. ended up in addidas playing Xbox360. haha. we spent like 30mins playing the soccer game. embarrasing but we dont care. lol.

friday, school was nothing interesting. but working at indoor stadium in the afternoon is what we all have been looking forward to. 16 ballers head down to the stadium at 2pm and got ready. saw singapore slingers practising at the court already. this job is really cool, we get really close to players we never thought of seeing. of all teams, i love spain. they're just great. they play good offense, tight defense and quick fast breaks. they're not the team with the biggest of size but they all played with style. my favourite player for the whole tournament, Juan Carlos Navarro. he got the MVP in the end though. they're other really great players with great personalities, Pau Gasol from Spain and Ben Knight from Singapore Slingers are great examples.
there're other players which i really admire, Lakovic, Udrih and Nesterivic from Slovenia, Jose Calderon and Rudy from Spain.

we've got to know this really great boss, Bruce. this guy is great. you would never be any happier if you have him taking care of you. he never fails to praise you everytime you get something done. he gets you motivated, just pleasant to work for him. the diplomatic yet firm way he put certain things across us is just motivating. if i'm ever going to be a boss or leader in anyway, i'm going to learn to be Bruce. one of the best guy i come across in my life.

so we had fun working like that. i'm kinda addicted to this job. i'm always thinking of the matches every now and then. and i'm used to seeing Bruce and working in the air-conditioned court. i had funa nd enjoyed working with huiwen, chunyong, shanmin, magdalene, jollene. the rest, i didn't have much chance to work together with.

what both me and shanmin came up with while working there,
High Class Girls dont Flirt, they Socialize.
High Class Girls dont Lie, they give you a Alternative.

Huiwen and Chunyong are great guys.

went to bedok for dinner with wei xiong after that. we really ate. a lot a lot. we were dam tired and took a cab home in the end. great time with him. great senior.

i was toooooo tired for school on monday. so i decided not to come. initially, me, chunyong, magdalene, k.c and grace decided not to come. but all were forced to school by their mums, except me and k.c. but weehoe and wenqi didn't turn up in the end. ended up meeting andrea for dinner at night then we studied till 10.30 before she left. but i carried on studying with magdalene till around 11.20pm.

school today wasn't any great. good to see classmates again. but i was really disappointed with biology. could have got a A1 but got a B3 in the end. i knew the answers, i knew how to do the questions at my fingertips, but i was careless. which caused the whole question 4marks, its upon 50, so when converted, its 8marks. i was just just just just just so so sooooooooo disappointed. i couldn't take it so i went to the toilet. after a few periods later, i tried to change my mood. i dont want to affect my friends.

anyway, i'll do better for the next test and i wont be careless!

had chemistry test on last period and had to stay back after school for e maths test. cause i didn't come on monday. huiwen wait for my test to end, before going down to the court with k.c. me and huiwen couldn't wait for training, cause we were sooo motivated after working 3days watching all the stars play. we just want to play like them. anyway, we tried and although we still played much louiser than those stars, but at least i think we improved playing like that. i hope more of this training would come and i would definitely work hard with you Huiwen!

went to 85 for dinner after training. got home with jasper, liangkai, hongkai, yi cheng, chunyong, lee cheng and vivien. all took 17. got home and blog.

i love time with you.

Juan Carlos Navarro.

when its again, again and again.

i'm unhappy. not happy.
u get 1 but u forget about 2. u get 2 and forget about 1.
taken for granted again? i dont know.
i feel like a telephone man.
all i hear, are just through the phone.

cause you bring out the best in me,
like no one else can do.
thats why i'm by your side,
thats why i'm loving you.

when i'm different.

had bio common test this morning. i wont do well. i know myself. fuck it man. i'm not doing well for my tests now. bio's not going to be good, a maths taken a few weeks ago wont be good, social studies last friday dont seem very comforting either. oh and i just failed english last week. though more than half the class failed the test but still there's still some expectations. fuck it man. i'm going to try harder.

school today isn't any good too. i just feel that school's different now. i dont know why. maybe its just myself. i dont feel like i'm in a place where everyone know's each other very well. or am i just seeing people with different intentions for friendships. i wish i could read minds. friends, hah, always there?

watched lake house after school today. the show's good. its interesting, or rather i think its your company. i had the right company, the right show, the right everything. so i thought the show was great. thank you louisa. :)

tomorrow's 2.4km run. good thing is that we dont have to go for school. bad thing is, we have to wake up earlier and then run our best. aim this year, below 9 and a half minute is good. rank , top 10. no one have decided where to go after the run tomorrow, i think we'll end up in the lan shop or something.

i dont know whats wrong with me recently. i'm not confident of myself. i think i'm wrong. i always think that i'm sick. i piss people off, and people piss me off. i'm tired, i just want a rest but i dont want to be alone. i dont want to lie and stay awake, but i cant get to sleep. someone someone someone save me from all this. i'm serious... ...

tokyo drift.

has social studies test yesterday. almost the whole class knew what was coming out for the test. hopefully i wont do too badly.

had training after school. it was good at first, and then everything kinda got screwed up later. i'm sorry guys, especially weiyang. i hope u understand.

did the 3-point push up thing with huiwen. dam, its really good training like that. leon came from no where suddenly and then decided to watch tokyo drift at night. leon, chunyong, chester, andy and i met at tampines mall for long john, and then walked over to century for the show.

oh ya, i was walking in the mall looking for the guys. i knew they were in the arcade. i went in to find them and i saw this guy who looked very much like chester. so i went there to smack his ass. HAHA. it was dam embarrasing when he turn and was not chester. wtf. the guys laughed like mad when they heard bout this. i even thought of hiding after smacking him, to play a fool with chester. but wtf, turn out to be some stupid ah beng. lol.

long john was good. we sat down and finished i dont know how many packets of chilli sauce. its more than 15. chunyong himself had 8 already. lol. we had a good talk. we laughed so loud that people walking outside longjohn looked in. we suddenly talked about PYX and then laughed. chunyong told us about the crushcalculator trick. and realised that jovan actually believed it. and we know who's his crush. and we had a good laugh. okay this is the funniest. this is what leon told us. but its all a joke. so take anything serious.

LOVE CALCULATOR.
Leon Goh Jie Rui and (his ex-girlfriend)
results percentage = 16%

Goh Jie Rui Leon and Rubbish Bin
results percentage = 99%



this is dam dam dam funny when he told us. i still can laugh if he tells us this. oh, tokyo drift's not bad. we all quite enjoyed the show. but too bad the show's about 1 and a half hour only. we expected a 2hour one. most importantly, THE GIRLS REALLLLLL HAWWWWTTTT. we went down to simei after the show. it was around 10 by then. we wanted to try the new lan-shop. raiders that moved from tampines to simei. it's not very good though, still all the old coms. just a new place. had a good time there as well. all laughing.

leon and chester left by train. i walk to the bus-stop near chunyong's place with him. then i took 9 home. got home, no long after i slept.

luckily we got it done before the weekends. anyway i miss u!! lovee you.

thank you andrea for your breakfast the past two days. hehe. the pizza's great. i dont know how i can i thank your dad. anyway, thanks for the effort!!

everyone, huiwen got nice abs. look out for this man when he takes off his shirt.

good and bad.

the weekend was great. had training on sat in the morning. than went to t-mart for lan with juniors. went for dinner with andrea, chun yong, magdalene and grace at bedok interchange after bathing at home. oh, before meeting them at interchange, i went to cut my hair. wanted to cut at shunji matsuo as usual but they gave me some fucked up attitude on the phone that i got too pissed off to consider going there again. end up trying REDS which cost more, around $33. i'll try JY another time andrea.

met for lan early in the morning of sunday. weiyang, zhengyi, andy, leon, chunyong, jovan and i. was abit screwed up in between but aiya, always because of dota. after that everyone split, zhengyi went with weiyang, andy went with leon and i alone which met louisa later in the day. got myself dressed up nice and formally before picking louisa at her place. we took at cab down to suntec and shopped candy empire. bought few extraordinary candies which cant be bought in mama shops, and also huiwen and jovan's birthday gift there. had marche for dinner. we had a real great time in there. haha. we spent $76 in there. eating almost everything we felt like. luckily we weren't late for the concert.

walk down to the esplanade through citylink. it was great to see my friends all dressed up nicely at the esplanade. the performance wasn't as bad as i thought. was a eye-opener to the high-pitched 'opera' singing.

i hope everyone was envious of u, or rather us. i wished i was sitting next to u.

i saw louisa home after the performance. dropped at simei and than had a really nice walk down to tampines. i really had a good time dearie. thank you i hope there's more of days like this.

went on to meet the rest of the guys at simei again. lol.

soon after i got home.

we went for ice-skating on monday. there wasn't school because esplanade ended late and the school gave us a holiday. almost the whole of the class went. it was my first time and i'm glad that i could go on and skate with the regulars. (k.c and binghao)+ guo rong now. it was a good experience. i wished that andrea, weiyang, andy, huiwen, zhengyi and weehoe were there to join in the fun. i had a good time there, it's a good place to bond.

school and then training in the afternoon. i had a bad day today. lets not talk about it. i miss u, jovan.

i'm not petty. if u can joke, so can i. there's nothing to be mad about.