Riverside.

Happy Birthday Bros! Love you guys forever so sorry can't be out to celebrate with y'all!

The past 7days have been boring! I'm bored in camp, because of many reasons. But life haven't been that tough compared to the days i've endured in CDA. Coming here makes me feel old, its more of me helping others. Maybe because i'm a regular, people look up to me sometimes. Reality is, i'm still younger than everyone here! Time is short in clm, and i'll be sad to leave many friends behind. Though its only been a short 7 days for now.

Coming here makes me miss a lot of things. But looking back, its really heartwarming to know that many have made the effort to meet up with me. And it really is through these efforts people make, that will create memories in my head. Memories when at times like these, you really need to depend on. Without them, time passes slowly. Funny how everytime i fall asleep, i think of you. No matter where i go, no matter how i feel, all i need to do is to think of you and everything seem to be better, to be brighter. Thinking of you, keeps me alive somehow. And i do anything, to think of you.

Slacking in bunk is my favorite past time, turning the room into some kinda club with my buddy is just awesome shit. I think things will get better as time moves on.

Just watched i can't remember how many videos of taylor swift on youtube. And i just can't stop watching back to december, the feeling it gives me is just.. i don't know its just therapeutic. I'll do anything to date a girl like her!

Time to sleep now, before i get extra tomorrow. I hope you sleep well too, and hope you can finish your work! Goodnight!

Count.

The last few days have just been awesome for me, before i book into shit ass camp again. And it touches my heart deeply when i know people make the effort to spend time with me before i get lost somewhere again. I never know how much is enough to thank these people, obviously they are people you want to keep for the rest of your life.

Substation with manda and mehddyy on wed was awesome, got to see grace and twinz at hall as well! Thursday was prawning with tangalicious and mac, bon boy joined for poker afterwards. Friday was gardens with ATEAM, another great night i just wished i was still in civil defence. Sat was awesome went for sushi tei with SJ which made my day and then kbox with tanggy mac and bon again. Butter at midnight was quite the shit with daryl and kai because of the absynth shot yeah rock my baby and belvedere. Today's special, pass prac 7, and something happened which was the most delightful thing. Totally make my week, month, maybe year!

Tell me how to wake up in 4hours to report to Safti? Time to put my cape on, Superman.

Light.

Well, well. First post of 2011!

Yes i did pass the last theory before new year begin and it felt good. I'll just do as much as i can before time catches up and in camp i go.

I got wasted on the very first day of 2011, is that a good or bad start? I didn't know that i did such embarrassing things, and i feel dam bad for being down so early that night! I mean i promised everyone to party all night but i was gone. And i found out i got cheated, i had more submarines than i thought. My friends cheated me into drinking them! But never mind, its over and maybe its good to let everything out. I felt much better at the spot, i know. At least better than how i feel now.

Developed the love for prawning i don't know why. Maybe its the many hours i spend just standing there with a rod trying to focus on small details, small distractions and movements. Maybe its because i try hard and i wait and at the end, i do catch something. Maybe its because i really like being in a world of my own, subconsciously able to think about certain things. Maybe its because i really love challenges. Some of it i realize we are slowly losing it in life. We always look at the big picture, forgetting to slow down at times. And at times, we realize how much the small details meant but its too late, we regret.

But one thing for sure is i really love the BBQ prawns. Sitting down with bros, chilling with no worries. I don't know when's our next opportunity.

Today i had the tastiest pancakes! I had this wonderful pancakes at this place i really love now, and every mouth of feeding myself i just felt so blissful and happy. And its really so yummy, its like you jizz on your pants with every mouth you take. Its a place i really wish i could bring you along with, to share this happiness.

Tomorrow is FFI, i hope i pass the medical. AND I PRAY THAT THERE IS NO BLOOD TEST. I scared pain plus i think i'll fail cause my blood is like red wine, 17% alcohol content now. So if take, i probably die. So i better drink more water tonight.

Off to my hometown Bangkok on friday! God, i really need this trip. I just want to get away from this place for a moment, and stop thinking about everything for awhile. My brain is just so filled up with thoughts, i am going bonkers if i continue thinking and worrying about dumb things. Just let me go, let me go and enjoy for awhile. I feel happy just thinking about my tomyum, padthai and singha the moment the plane touches down. And the massage i'm going for everyday, shabu shabu and all the shopping! It just makes me crazy!

No new year resolutions, because you forget about them after a month. If you truly have resolutions, you don't have to tell people about it. It should be something close to your heart you want to achieve, it should be an aim that on one can comprehend or see. Its a goal only tangible to yourself. See what i mean?

Things come and go, and truly after every up you go down. What comes around, goes around and around and around and around.. 2012 is coming, the world would end?

What does it mean to you when my text get to you? How do you feel? Because every time yours get through to me, you light up a special light in me.