Cut.

Who likes to be in a routine?

You want to be out of it when you're in, dread facing the same thing everyday. you want your freedom back, and you want to have a choice to make.

But when you're out, you feel weird having to make choices. you dread feeling ill-disciplined, and you dislike being inefficient.

Either way, its hard.

Take time, don't rush baby. its time to grow out of your fantasies.