hah, finally. what everybody wanted.

well, after so many incidents and time, we're finally together. 270th. things went well today. met her in the morning and we went school together. then school was alright. learnt a few basics of the bass. haha. think i really like to play it. or maybe bcze yuhua, zhengyi and i just blend together too nicely. hahahhaa. after that, we went back to class. and we gambled again. hahaha. the usual guys, chunyong, leeyang, wee hoe and all la. haha. i didn't lose money today. started with 50cents ended with a dollar plus. haha. after school. we met. we almost didn't. she skipped training for me. haha. i'm so touched. haha. we went to century to watch transporter 2. it was a great show but it was the time we spent together that was quality. yes. after that i forced her into the neoprints shop to take some shots. haha. can u imagine? this is supposed to be the girl's initiative. but i actually had to do it. hahaha. its ok. it shows that we're a unique one. hahaha. after which, she went to my place. guess i shouldn't explain in detail what happen. but yeah. QUALITY TIME. haha. then, i see her home. before letting her hand go. i asked her the magic question. and lucky enough. it was a yes. she gave me really cute and memorable gifts in the morning. but i hope its the time and happy moments that we shared together that lingers in our hearts. i'm going off to shanghai tomorrow. for this cultural exchange nonsense. but our class is just going there to create some troubles and have fun. haha. the hotel is going to get screwed by us. and then we'll have the drinking and stuffs. shouldn't go into detail again. hahaha. i'm really happy today. and i guess i will b tomorrow. she's sending me to the airport. then we would have breakfast together and then she goes back to school. darling u're so sweet to me. and yes. i love you. i love you so much. my heart belongs to you. and i promise that no matter what i'll be doing over there, u'll be in my heart. everynight, it'll be our night. our moments just playing in my mind over and over again. my smile in my sleep for you. i hope u'll be alright without me here with you. we just started and i couldn't be there for u the 1st 9days. i'm sorry alright? but i promised what i'll give you when i come back would be more that the 9days anyone can give you. lots of love to you darling. and i'll miss you.

this morning sucked.

i woke up and things suck. nothing went in the way i wanted. first i was supposed to meet them at kembangan mrt to go town. after that 2 of them told me that wanted to go to tampines mall only. so i was left with him. then later another guy i was supposed to meet in town. tell me that he met with other people already. and that since i still have this friend with me. then i might as well go with this friend. then he can go with his friends too. what really made me angry was that he was supposed to meet me last night. and that when i'm already on the train to meet him. he told me he was with another group and he doesn't want to leave them. so i had to meet someone else last night. and he kinda promised to meet today. so when i answered his call, i was furious. i realised that he was meeting a group of people which disappointed me. YOU BITCH! since its so hard to meet with you all the time then forget it la. what u're showing me now is that u're goin to anywhere as long as its more fun and convenient for you. then my mum sent me a late msg that she wanted to meet for dinner at 6pm. like wtf? i already met my friends. and what does she want now? she wanted to meet me and my sis. but my sis was able to hook my mum off with her stupid excuses. and now its left with me. i was really troubled then i wanted to call her to talk to her. she didn't went to church in the end. so i thought i could meet her. but she said. "i don't want to meet you." fine. fine la. to me. u didn't change at all. FUCK LA. FUCK EVERYTHING. I JUST WANT TO LEAVE.

friends.

its 2.27am now. sat already. but i'm blogging for friday la. which is 3 hours ago. i'm tired already so i'll talk about my day more briefly. so the day starts by the alarm clock again. 17 came so i took it. when i board the bus, i saw alicia sitting at the front row. so just a normal hi and bye. so i board the bus, took the bus, alight the bus and walk to school all alone. (as i saw alicia with her friends) yup. my legs felt strong this morning so i decided to walk the stairs to school fast. (i think its about 6 storeys long? madness) then i walk into the class with no welcome. haha. many people didn't come for school as they felt that it was a waste of time. we came to school for training and it ended 1h45mins later. cool rite? so people like wei yang, leon, andy and k.c skipped school. most of them had the same reasons except k.c who seemed to not feeling well. wei yang, leon and andy had their computer games in mind, just that they were different games. well, as i'm a good boy. i wont skip school. haha. i guess everyone knows that too. haha. the stupid music starts to play then we have to walk like some idiots in the parade square. and the music is so cool. it makes us like so inspired to walk. my ass. hahaha. so everything went well at first. the devotion was perfect by mr ben tan. when kathini suddenly walked to the sec 2 area and stood in front of me. i wasn't suprised to be caught cause of my hair today. it was more exotic as i thought the teachers wouldn't b as strict.
kathini came in front of me and said. "what in the world is that?! "
julian said. "my hairstyle."
kathini."stand up now and get back."
julian."now?"
kathini stares at julian irritated. "yes now!"
i was noticed by many people by standing up in the middle of the cohort. then me and kathini continued our conversation.
kathini."u want me to cut your hair again?!" (she cut my fringe once before, it wasn't a long time ago)
julian."of course not. cher relac sia. today almost last day. relac sia."
kathini."#$%@#$!!!!!! are u wearing school pants?! are u wearing school shoes?! are u wearing CCA t-shirt?!"
julian."yes cher."
kathini."then dont need school hair ah??!!! go to the toilet and wash your hair NOW! (she points blindly into the school compound)
julian."which toilet u want me to go?"
kathini."any toilet u want la!!!!!!!"
so this was how the morning went. interesting rite? hahaha. den we got back to class and though the school said no playing of poker cards if u're wearing the uniform and u're in the school compound. but who cares? this is 2H man. hahaha. so we played till someone informed us to go to the stadium as mr hoo and ms ng shan shan needs to do some review with us. everything was okay at first again. then he suddenly said that he received a call from the HOD early in the morning. then he glared at me and said. today. our julian had did something. so it was like a WTF to me. but i was smiling. haha. i thought it was normal for boys man. it has to be part of my childhood. yeah. so i got scolded by mr hoo like !@@!$@#$!#@$#@!#$$@#%#$%$^@^#$!!!. hahahhahaha. but nevermind. it didn't spoil my day. then after the review. the guys went to play ball and i did gym beside the court. i did it alone, so i didn't complete 3sets. after which, many people left already. and somehow left weehoe, guorong, binghao and me. so we played 2 on 2. we had a lot of fun. and after playing, we decided to go for lunch. we went simei east point. we went to the foodcourt. binghao wanted sakae sushi and weehoe wanted KFC. but i would gobble food if i went to either restaurants. as i was on diet, i wanted to go for the economic. haha. so the final decision was the foodcourt. haha. i had rice while the 3 of them had noodles. after chilling for awhile, we wanted to go LAN. but it was closed still. so weehoe and binghao suggested the arcade. we went and had fun again. hahahha. i just realised that binghao and guorong are not that good with arcade games. ah nvm. it explains why they got good results though. hahaha. then we spent about $5 for 4 of us? hahaha. but we spent like almost 45mins in there? hahaha. then we went to try the LAN again. but guorong left after the arcade. we entered the gaming room. i ask for 3 coms. but the guy look blurred. he seemed to be willing to give me the com if i asked for 1. haha. but he look out of the shop and binghao standing there helplessly. he asked if all of us were 16. hahaha. so we cant enter until 6.30pm. hahha. weehoe and binghao got hungry. like omg. hahaha. i was still full. so they went to KFC this time. hahah. i just sat there and read. they were tempting me abit but i was strong. hahahah. after that, we couldn't decide on where to go. so they suggested to go to my place. hahah. then weehoe and binghao came and weehoe formed this WWE wrestling deck which couldn't beat me. hahahha. dam funny with that. then binghao tried but cant win me too. so we had fun again. hahah. then as weehoe and i were playing the cards. binghao was bored and he totally took the massage chair like his and enjoyed it so much that he wouldn't get off the seat. hahah. dam funny again. yeah yeah. so we left at 5.10? as weehoe and i had bball trianing at mountbatten CC at 7pm. so we split with binghao. i went to weehoe's place and wait for him to bath. then we meet weiyang at a nearby bus stop and went to mountbattern CC. and on our way to the CC, we met leeyang on 21. haha. so we went together. upon arriving at this remoted bus stop. we had to walk quite a distance before reaching the CC. so we walked to another bus top by the way to wait for KC to arrive. he got the wrong bus in the end went the wrong way. instead of heading geylang area, he was heading bradder. so we asked him to get off immediately and take a cab down. the four of us then walk to the CC and KC arrived 30mins later. it was my first time actually to met with the rest of the team. this team was first joined by weehoe, wei yang, kc and leeyang. then i joined. they were other players too as well. and i made new friends again. its just something i'll feel good making new friends. and they're nice people. i made friends with alwin and cornelius from macpherson sec and benjamin from dunman high. most of us they are all jokers. hahah. so we had lame and really funny jokes. at first when cornelius met me and we started talking. he asked me if i was from the phillipines. like WTF? hahahha. then i told him no i was from malaysia, was also from thailand, was also from china and was also from korean. hahaha. that was the first joke. then everything was fine from then. and we had fun again. hahahha. i blogged quite long already! hahaha. so sleeping now. well, after that i made another friend called catherine. (hopefully i got the spelling of her name right) yeah. she was waiting for alwin all the way. like from 7pm until 11.10pm? maybe thats love? but he claims that they're only frens. hahha. yup. so i had this day making new friends, enjoying time with them and most importantly bonding with the old friends making us closer. yup. so today was rather nice to me and i managed to play ball again. for another day. my mums coming back on the sunday from sydney. she was there for a business trip. she would stop me from balling if she knows that i went to play. she'll stop me!!! argh. :( how sad. i mean exams are over right? and everybody wants to do what they enjoy and likes to do what. and basketball takes like a big part of me? NO WAY MAN. take care guys.

results.

yesterday and today are days that the teachers are returning the exam scripts. well, i wasn't that confident for this exam and true enough, the results are not what i expected.
geography = 71.5%
history = 67%
maths = 52%
science = 71.5%
design and technology = 72%
english = 62%
chinese = 61%
everything was below expectations except for geography and design and technology.
i was quite disappointed to receive such results despite my hardwork thoughout this whole year. but, nevermind. its over i know. and there is no second chance. so i might as well enjoy my holidays now. my triple science dream i can never fulfil. after getting back results, the basketball team could leave school earlier. we had to go to CCAB for a skills test. this was our second time going. we felt that it was a waste of time as we did it once already. however, they said it was to test our consistency. then, wei yang, k.c, kenneth and rocket were stubborn and stick with their decisions to not participate the second time. so the rest went and we met woodgrove, woodland ring and mayflower girls this time. the last time, we met jurong boys n girls and chung cheng high. was great to see jason there too. (woodgrove) as it is our second time doing, we were not as serious. wee hoe, huiwen and i didn't even wore basketball pants. we did the test with our school shorts. (its not stretchable and its easy to split) hahaha. i even split my pants once in school. hahahha. bryant, huiwen and i wore school shoes too. hahah. so we were like in a inproper attire as the other school treated it seriously and wore proper basketball attire. the test went like that.
the first time (monday)
dribbling with speed station = 11.15s
dribbling with basket count station = 6
passing station = 71
shooting station = 10
the second time (today)
dribbling with speed station = 11.4s
dribbling with basket count = 6
passing station = 71
shooting station = 14
so there was improvement and some got worst. but we didn't bother. we just wanted to have fun. and yes we did. i had my day with a lighter head today. finally, the ignoring is over. and at least i feel the love. i hope things would remain like that. and that it would progress further with time. i just reached home and started blogging. hope everyone would be satisfied with their exam results. and hopefully athena can be in a peace of mind and do well for her exams. :)

in the com lab.

hahaha. i'm in summer concerto in school's com lab. dam boring. stupid science teacher mr tan so dam strict with our exams marking. wtf. hahaha. so after finishing revising and going through the papers, he allowed us to watch movie. but no one did. hahah. everyone is using the com. some at friendster, most playing icy tower. n i'm blgging. hahaha. yup. so i'm bored n i want to add another entry. hahah. zheng yi is beside me playing the stupid icy tower game n he called me a noob. that dickhead. hahahahha.

enough.

thanks to poline that my blog is done. haha. so i'll reward her. i had fun today. we went sentosa in the morning. haha. i woke up early in the morning to watch tv. my favourite show. da tang shuang long chuan. some chinese show la. nvm. but wen i woke up i realise that its the wrong timing. as i couldn't get back to sleep, i stared into space. den left the house on exact timing to met andrea n pamela at tanah merah mrt. i made it to the train station exactly at 10am. but andrea was late. i still had to wait for her outside the toilet. that stupid girl. hahaha. yeah. den she was done and we went on to meet pamela on the platform. i told marcus and chonglin that i would meet them at 10.40am at harbourfront mrt. however, as someone was late. we met marcus n chonglin late. nvm. den we met at harbourfront n carried on to sentosa. we had fun joking n fooling around while walking. hahah. i lyk pressing chonglin's tits. hahaha. yeah. i'll skip the boring part. den we reach siloso beach. we went to andrea's favourite spot. den we camped there and the girls baked themselves while me, marcus n chonglin went to canoe. andrea was in while bikini and pamela in black. although both of them revealed like a man. me, marcus and chonglin managed to handle the torture n carry on with our canoeing. hahahahah!!(i'll be dead) say after 1 hour of canoeing, it started to drizzle n rain heavily. marcus was told by the staff of sentosa before boarding the bus that it would rain. and because he was stubborn. he kept telling me that it wouldn't rain for sure as it was dam hot upon reaching the beach. hahah. so he was proved wrong in the end however, he did not change his mind bout such coincidence. it rained den we decided to travel to town. main reason as we need lunch and i wanted to buy a sweater. we dropped off at somerset mrt n wanted to go heeren. on the way. i was slapped by marcus on the right arm. i screamed lyk a woman as it was hurting due to gym the day before. and then, pamela took the chance as i was finally lyk a woman, she slapped the left side of my arm. i just stood there helplessly n could only scream in pain.(i was sleeveless) den wen i stood up. chonglin asked me if i was alright. instead i slapped his tits again. i was sorry bout that. den chonglin grabbed my hand and we almost fought. forget bout that. i quickly walk towards marcus n slap his arm back. i couldn't help but swear. hahah. i was sorry guys. pamela too. shouldn't have cursed so much. yeah. den i dont know why i got angry. maybe i felt that marcus was unreasonable. i gave 'that' blackface. i didn't meant to spoil that moment. but after i chilled. i found out that it was unccessary to be so angry. so i'm sorry that i was so sensitive n petty. yup. den we decided to go to subway for lunch. it was only my second time trying their food. first time was at the airport and it wasn't a good experience. hahah. pamela and marcus convinced into going into the shop. yeah. so i went in and i was in a blurr. i didn't know what to order. pamela n chonglin recomended the terriyaki chicken. marcus n pamela choosed that so i didn't want to chose the same one as i wanted more varieties. yeah. so i choosed the cheese steak. it was great man! haha. yeah. the hungry marcus ordered a foot long of terriyaki chicken. he was crazy hungry i guess. he finished the food the same time as me. (mine was a 6-inch, half of his serving) hahahha. after lunch, me n andrea decided to leave first. i had basketball training at mountbatten CC at 7.15 with k.c, wee hoe, wei yang and lee yang. andrea needs a bath n she's going for a date. on the way back in the train, after andrea dropped off at tanah merah. wee hoe called and told me that because of the rain, training has been cancelled. i was bored n disappointed as i left marcus n chonglin in town. so after dropping at tampines mrt. i walk to take bus 21. on the way i saw angela. (my primary school friend) she was dressed sweetly and yeah. was great to see her again. i saw a bus n ran for it. i reached home n quickly took a hot bath as i was slightly drenched. then i went over to wei yang's place. we played NBA 2005 and DOTA together on the computer. hahahha. had abit of fun. den i got home n watch my favourite show at 9pm. after the show, i was bored again! so i decided to do this blog. i called poline for help. hahah. but after finishing the blog i'm alone again. all the stupid feelings are back. they suck. those feelings comes over me easily. insecurity and loniness. always standing a big part of me. i'm waiting for my phone to ring. n that name to appear. i miss you. can u just show me you love me? everyone has patience. including me. insecurity always overwhelm me. u'll never understand how i'm feeling. u're strong. strong enough without me. u can overcome all ur emotions and forget bout me. u can get on with your life. u can do without me. but i cant. i need you. i feel that i need you badly. be there for me pls. i think i wrote enough dude. pretty long for my first formal entry. yup. i'm a bastard.