people gone with time.

i'm feeling the heat for my prelims and o's already!!! is it too late or too early? haha. but dam, i'm worrying like shit. i'm going to start preparing soon.. very soon...

just came home from tution, and i feel good! i feel more confident about myself, when i know i can do that chapter. hahaha. today was quite fun, Tracy, Shan, Weehoe and myself got nominated to try for the Prom King/Queen. bet its going to be a real fun experience! hahaha. and thanks for those who supported me in class today.

i'm soooooo tired nowadays. 7-8hours sleep a day is NOT ENOUGH. i'm crazy, i'll get tired if i dont get XX hours of sleep. i'm going to make sure i have enough sleep before the exams. like 15hours of sleep everyday. hahahhaha.

2.4km run at ECP this saturday. just do my best and i have to rush home after the run. because i've got my Club Championship Matchplay Semi-Finals. i'm afraid i'll be too tired to play later in the afternoon. but who cares, thats when i want to achieve.

Bambi's sitting on my lap now. i dont know whether she can read my mind or something. she looks like she want to care for me. she looks as though she want to company me while i struggle. she looks like she want to help. she looks like she love me. she looks like she's trying to assure me that she wont leave me. its been 8 years with her, and its the first time that i felt so much from her. i hope she wont leave me ever.

GrandPa's gone a week ago. i really regret not spending time with him. actually i haven't seen him for years. and then when i heard he was sick and had to be warded,i finally decided to look for him. by the time i got to see him at the hospital, he was already reduced to 25kg. he was already very skinny, he was about 30kg before he got to the hospital. and then he got worst. i knew he missed me when i looked into his eyes, and i really really regret not taking a day off for him. he promised me that he'll pull through and we'll have dinner at his favourite place. one week later, he let go and went. actually, he put up a fight. i knew he didn't give up, he had to eventually. he fought for a week, and i know its tough. Rest In Peace, AhGong.

i realise the value of kinship during the funeral. actually i feel much more comfortable with my family. but since young, i never had the chance to really spend quality time with my family. not just my uncle and aunties, but even my own dad and mum. now when everything's broken up, its too late for anything. i guess i'm just born to be independent.

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Passion, will/not let me down.

i'm so vexed over with the JC decision. AC or VJ?
i've been thinking dam dam hard about it. both schools have things that i like, and those that i dont like. i weighed over and over and over again, its really left to one thing to decide. its whether i still want to play basketball or not.
and after thinking so hard, i realize i cant give it up. its in me, its too tough for me to give it up.
i know some of you might laugh at me. because my basketball is not very good, not good enough to represent S'pore, so i have no future for it. but what the heck, it doesn't have to be the full reason or will for you to do something you have passion for.

i know i might regret, regret not going AC. regret not going full-time into golf. regret not listening to everyone who told me to choose AC. regret for trying to do so much and making myself struggle with everything in VJ. i know i might regret about many things. but wanting to play basketball with some friends, and going through thick-and-thin with those with me, its something you cannot find easily in life.

i know life's going to be real tough ahead of me. its going to be much worst than how it is now. if i have so little time for golf now, i know you people cant expect me to even touch my clubs when i get into VJ. well, thats my challenge. if i fail, i fall badly, if i succeed, my family and friends will hail me.

it is going to be another phase for me.

i know oneday, i might just lose my passion for basketball, just simply drains away from me. and when i look back, i'll be such a fool. to waste all my time on something where i see myself regretting. so, i'm going to change my mindset.
its not going to be whether i regret, or continue to play basketball. i'm going to look back to see my time spent with friends, to maximise myself, stretching to the limit.

deep inside, those that truly cares for me, or love me, will suppot me all the way.

can i have my Transformers??

i slept at 8.30pm the night before, and 5.30pm yesterday. total 21hours of sleep, and i still cant wake up on time in the morning. i dont know what's wrong with me. hahaha. but i love to sleep. sleeping is good. its dam good. it gives me a better feeling of life. life seems to be better.

headed to gym with weehoe, ben and k.c. haven't touched any of those metallic shits since the start of this year. so i have to start from scratch over again. its dam gay to hold something lighter than k.c. i feel inferior. hahaha hahah.
so i did some light workout and had a run to get myself back into track. and now, i feel good! anyway... weehoe left us in the middle for some date, and chunyong joined us. haha.

watched TRANSFORMERS at 1750. it was a freaking freaking AWESOME show. haha. i know i have been claiming that its the best movie i've watched many times. but something better keeps appearing!! i wish i could have my own TRANSFORMER too!! hahaa.
BEN I'M REGRETTING.

played Club Championship Matchplay Qualifier on Saturday. played quite well, 76. i'm just quite stupid you know. 4bogeys in the first 6holes. ended up 4th, qualified for Matchplay. going up against TonyTan, scratch handicapper. muahahah. wish me luck.

RECAP.
june holidays was just filled with golf. every week is all cramped up with golf games. week-in, week-out, i'm all about golf, i was turning green. and black! hahaa.
after inter-school was Jakarta World Junior. you wouldn't believe what i shot first day. 89!! haha, 11over through 4holes. hahaha. i was like an idiot. so i played 89, 84, 77, 79. got 20th overall for A boys. cannot blame me la, no practice round what. hahaha.
next was Singapore Junior Open. again, i played quite bad. hahaha. 83, 78, 86. again, cannot blame me la.. i was sick. serious, i had high fever since first day. hahaha. anyway, keppel's sick. the course drives people crazy.
then it was DBS at Sembawang. haha. i played quite well, 75, 76. got 5th overall. just one stroke better and i could have just gotten second. 2nd,3rd,4th all tied at 150, and i'm at 151. dam sad. haha.
the last week was Seletar Junior GT, i played 75 and then 83, its dam stupid. i feel like i'm throwing chances away again and again. but it was quite fun throughout the whole week. got eagles and my nice nickname, 'LumberJack'. think about it. haha.

do i sound very happy? think about it again.

Sweet Sixteen.

My Sweet Sixteen, was special.

Inter-School was important to me this year, really important. because i've been achieving something annually. naturally, many people have high expectations of me, people want to see if i can still do something, 4years straight.
Inter-School was on the 21st, 22nd and 23rd May. Last day happened to fall on my birthday! i played really well, 69 on the first day which was my personal best and a average round of 77. i thought i was going to win it, and played a conservative bogey on the last. i had a feeling i was going to regret using this strategy, and i planned for my own failure. i still couldn't expect Chong Zheng to come back with a 71 and win on a count-back. its sick.. it really is.
is God trying to joke with me, or toying with my feelings. i knew i was going to win, and then i went downhill all the way, throwing all the cushion i toughly won. You gave me my Hole-in-One, regain all my confidence, assuring that its really mine this time, my title. and You made me lost by the slightest, slightest ever margin. i feel so disappointed in myself.

looking at things on another point of view, it is still indeed one memorable and yet exciting Sweet Sixteen for me. i learnt lessons, huge lessons, i got my first Hole-in-One, got my spots into JCs, and make new friends.
so i lost the B'boys Div by count-back and lost the team event, getting 5th, losing to the 4th by countback again.
Lucky am i? Unlucky am i?

now i've seen things that are almost impossible done, i believe i can make impossibles happen again. who'ld expect me to shoot 4under back nine, and come with a Hole-in-One the next day?

thanks to friends who were there for me.