when i'm different.

had bio common test this morning. i wont do well. i know myself. fuck it man. i'm not doing well for my tests now. bio's not going to be good, a maths taken a few weeks ago wont be good, social studies last friday dont seem very comforting either. oh and i just failed english last week. though more than half the class failed the test but still there's still some expectations. fuck it man. i'm going to try harder.

school today isn't any good too. i just feel that school's different now. i dont know why. maybe its just myself. i dont feel like i'm in a place where everyone know's each other very well. or am i just seeing people with different intentions for friendships. i wish i could read minds. friends, hah, always there?

watched lake house after school today. the show's good. its interesting, or rather i think its your company. i had the right company, the right show, the right everything. so i thought the show was great. thank you louisa. :)

tomorrow's 2.4km run. good thing is that we dont have to go for school. bad thing is, we have to wake up earlier and then run our best. aim this year, below 9 and a half minute is good. rank , top 10. no one have decided where to go after the run tomorrow, i think we'll end up in the lan shop or something.

i dont know whats wrong with me recently. i'm not confident of myself. i think i'm wrong. i always think that i'm sick. i piss people off, and people piss me off. i'm tired, i just want a rest but i dont want to be alone. i dont want to lie and stay awake, but i cant get to sleep. someone someone someone save me from all this. i'm serious... ...