titles suck.

was woken up in the morning by my cousin. it was only 9.30 in the morning. then met leon and andrea with my cousin at simpang bedok for breakfast. met and had a nice chat while having dinner. andrea gave me, leon and my cousin our christmas presents. so we were happy. haha. i dont know what both of them got. but andrea got things for me that were really cool. and hey. if u're reading this. they means alot to me. i ate very little for breakfast. one prata only. and i'm full. realize that my appetite is smaller recently. which is a good thing. after the meal. saw leon off. then after that saw my cousin off. he had to go back to malaysia. he's a malaysian. he's my greatest brother. grew up with him since i was very young. we were very childish when we're young. we fight each other everyday last time. but in a joking and having fun way. until recently when i'm older. we start to talk about things more mature. like girls? haha. i really appreciate his company. he'll be in s'pore every holiday. and luckily i have him. or i'll really be very bored at home. i really love this brother. so it was kinda sad to see him off in the afternoon. walk up the hill with andrea. we both have training. training was not bad. just that it was dam boring. the new china guy's not bad. he's improving like mad. after training. hanged around in the canteen with wei xiong, qiangsen, junyi, issac, k.c and zi hang. went back with wei xiong. oh. and we finally took our new jersey for b'div next year. its blue and white this time. i dont know why. helped wei yang took his as he didn't come for training. then passed it to him when i'm going home. he stays near my place. so came back and i miss my cousin!! i really miss him. argh. so i'll look forward to the next holiday. take care in malaysia KOR.

is this christmas?

its christmas. but i'm not at all excited. totally different from the annual excitement of christmas. woke up and went to the gym with my dad and cousin. dad signed me up in this course in the gym. hopefully he'll help me to build my body. stayed at the club for awhile more after gym. went to play pool with my cousin. then got home around 1. rest at home for awhile before meeting leon at kembangan mrt with my cousin. was going to meet andrea, macus and zhengyi here later. but realise later that macus and zhengyi couldn't meet us. zhengyi had to do his homework and macus dont know for what reason. i dont know y zhengyi does his homework on christmas eve. so me, leon and my cousin walk the streets. me and my cousin was looking for a bag. so went to fareast then to heeren then to pacific plaza. haha. poor leon. had to walk so much with us. got the bag later at pacific plaza. then went to walk around again. till around 8? met andrea. had a had time meeting her as she lost her phone. so we used pure telepathy to communicate with her. haha. she brought emily along. so the 5 of us decided to eat at billy bombers for dinner while we're at fareast. went there then ate. the food just sucked. the christmas menu. sucked. big time. and they over-priced it. after dinner. went to meet macus. then some unpleasant incidents for leon. dont want to talk bout it. so cause of the unpleasant incidents. spent extra time there before getting to andrea's place. went there and slack at the pool side. by that time, there was only me, my cousin, leon and andrea. so sat there a talk. cousin performed some breakdance to entertain us. haha. sat there till 2am. my cousin fell asleep on the basking bench. haha. cze me leon and andrea were talking things he's not sure of. so after that went home with my cousin and leon. took a cab back. got back then we played worms on the com. lols. quite fun though. then slept around 5am. that was my christmas.

i never expected it to be like this. i was always hoping to spend it with u. but i know u cant.
my heart still hangs in there for u. believe it or not. doubt it or not.

what? i nv felt like that before.

woke up early in the morning. around 8am. had a friendly with raffles. felt great to see an zhen, danny and zhen feng. so we won by 19 in the end. we didn't play very well though. and i'm not sure whether raffles played well or not. after the game, wee hoe wanted to go play lan with leon, andy, jovan and zheng yi at katong. so i followed. he was late so we decided to take a cab there. went there, lee yang came. then we played together. went to geylang serai cc for awhile. wanted to kill time to meet her. fuck. i dont want to continue blogging bout the rest of the day. it just suck.

i didn't know u would treat me like that. i thought i was ur best. i thought u're closest to me among all of them. but is it so weak between us that u could turn ur face around and walk away. u disappointed me. disappointed me so so much.

i never thought that the day would end up like that. i thought i could never hate u. but u've just shown me the possibility of it. i never wanted to feel like that. i never wanted to be something u're scared of. i never wanted that. but u never realise. that my tears does go dry one day. and after u hurt me over and over again. the pain does go numb. i never wanted to lose you.

walk walk and walk.

today was much better. finally a day that puts a true smile on my face. she came over in the morning. guess we kind of cleared things up. but still, u cant promise me. i know u'll break my heart someday again. saw her to paya lebar. and sorry to the netball girls to make them wait. sorry! haha. it was my fault. hahaha. meet zi qi on the train. then we went to bugis. walk and walk while waiting for qiangsen to join us. after qiangsen came then we went for lunch. settled down at yoshinoya. ate quite alot with qiangsen. haha. then we carry on walking and walking. me and zi qi found the necklace he wanted to buy for his gf. he was quite lucky as it was a popular model. haha. while walking on the mall, i saw li ping. haha. she was asking me to help her with this charity thing i think? i thought it would be some kinda 2dollar thing. but it was 10bucks. haha. made me hesitate for awhile and still decided to help her la. hahaha. what are friends for? haha. after that then we carried on walking and got bored of the place. then we took a train down to orchard. got really tired of walking, so sat down at coffee bean at scotts to chillllll. haha. sat and relac then went to far east to walk and walk again. hahaha. after that, qiangsen had a date with mitch at cine to watch king kong. so me and zi qi accompanied him and then took a train from somerset. we drop off at simei. then me and zi qi walk and walk again! hahaha. went to popular then we had comments on almost every thing. lols. then after that he went home then i went to meet my darling again. walked to her place from simei. then we spent some time then i went home after that. i love you baby. so today was a pleasant day for me. :)

another day that seemed so hard to past.

couldn't sleep well last night. its been going on like this for the past few days. i just cant close my eyes and sleep peacefully. problems always react like a snowball for me. they comes together, or they just get worst. so i couldn't sleep well, i couldn't eat well too. just feel like vomitting after every first bite. i dont feel like doing anything. went for bball trainin at 3pm. got there, warmed-up, then tried to be focus. i know i have to be focus, i know the tournament's coming soon. i know i cant be behind time. i know my form have to come and maintain. played 3 on 3, didn't play well. i played like shit. nvm. ran double suicides. it just suck when u know nothing's good coming. u dont know why u're doing this and that. u hate to force a smile when u feel like crying. went to 85 to eat with qiangsen, wei xiong and zi qi. at least they're nicer to me today. had a long and nice chat there. took 17 home. thank you wei xiong for accompanying me. i hope u'll read my blog mitch. i know u wouldn't. but i'll just write so i'll feel better. this is not only to mitch, but to the whole team. sorry guys if i get solo sometimes. i mean i really didn't realized that till qiangsen told me. whenever, i'm with the ball on the 3-point line. i really get confident and it just boost. sorry if i rushed some offense and made you guys ran for nothing cze of my wasted attempt. i know i still have time to change. and sorry huiwen for that period of attitude huh. it really wasn't my day today. sorry guys. so i got home and i dont know what to do again. how i wish that u'll hold me in ur arms.

just to make myself feel better.

went to play lan with leon and zhengyi. went for dinner with macus after that. my day sucked without you. and without that you, i'm heavy hearted. i cant do anything.

what i never wanted.

why does everyone show me more concern than you do.
why do they make time for me and you dont.
why they assure me and you dont.
why am i so weak.

Chiangmai trip.

hey guys. i know i didn't update this shit for dam long. hahah. i'll just talk about my chiangmai trip first la. its actually a golf trip. and there's a private tournament in this trip. thats why i decided to go. i skipped the first 3 matches of the geylang serai U16 tournament. cze i went to this trip. our school had to play tampines sec first, then queensway and yio chu kang lastly. won every match, and i guess the team still haven't put in their best to win those matches. haha. okay. my trip. it was from 29th nov to 3rd dec. had to reach the airport at night time. around 7pm. then departed at around 9.30pm. went to row 11 of terminal 1. haha. faced embarrassement because of my gf! haha. reached the chiangmai thailand airport very late at night. by the time we got to the hotel, it was around 1-2am? got there then we were hungry. so we got room service. and we're amazed that they have room service at this hour. hahaha. after eating, we went 7-11 to stock up drinks. mostly were alcohol. haha. came back, then we drank abit before getting to sleep. next day we had to wake up around 10am. we had a golf game. we went to royal chiangmai golf club to play, second round went to this dont know what kuantan place to play and last round at mae joo golf club. i was second after the first round and then couldn't catch up with the leader. i played bad all 3 days. none was to my standard. but i was still lucky to get 2nd place. i was really lucky. we did alot of shopping there. there were many stalls just outside the hotel. they were selling mostly immitations. had zippo lighters, t-shirts, shoes, billabong shorts, watches, DVDs, shades and other sourvenirs. so for the few nights there, we just walk around the whole place, it was a really big and crowded place. so it took us a few days to just walk part of it. besides all the shopping, the food there was dam good and cheap. hahah. we actually went to this restaurant for dinner almost every night. hahah. we just love the food there. tom yam was perfect. hahah. we went for massage. leg massage and thai massage. wow! the thai massage is dam dam good. hahaha. though they do get abit intimate with you, but its reall good massage. hahah. they just crack every part of ur body. hahah. so, every night after all the shopping and drinking outside, we get back to the hotel, then wash up a little. chill and talk a little with alcohol in the room. wake up the next morning then went for golf game. except for the last day which was a little different. our flight was late. only had to reach the airport around 6pm. so we had the whole day to shop again. woke up early morning, then had breakfast. we went to collect our tailored pants after the meal. we made this really cool pants there. its like stripped and tapered. dam hot for golf. hahah. it was cheaper than s'pore. so we decided to do it there. s'pore sells about 70++, they sold to us sin$40. so its a worth buy there. after collecting, we took this tuk-tuk to a shopping mall. tuk-tuk is this 3 wheeled vehicle which can only carry about 3 passengers. they sound insignificant but they are actually hell-riders of thailand. haha. they drives dam fast with it and other vehicles usually gives way to them. hahah. 4 of us were together. 4 big men cant squeeze into one tuk-tuk rite? haha. so we split. me and kai kai. daryl and sonny together. on the tuk-tuk, we saw this ad on go-karts. we told the driver we want to go to the go-kart place. so we went there and the tuk-tuk drivers were so nice that they wait for us. but we had to pay them a little more. so after the go-karts, we went to this shopping mall that sells authentic stuff. finally. hahaha. went there then got my gf something. after that, i realized that i still have some thai baht. so i got myself this shirt. after that, it was almost time. so we got back to the hotel and left for the airport. went to the airport, and when we were about to enter the gates for departure, they announced delay for 1hr and 30mins. we were like WTF??!! hahaha. so had another thai dinner there. had tom yam kung again! hahah. while having dinner, sonny heard some rumours bout what casper said bout him. he was dam furious and wanted to whack him. straight after dinner, he went to confront casper.
son said: WHAT?! WHATS YOUR PROBLEM? (pushes cas)
cas replies: WHAT?!
son says: U WHAT SOME MORE I WHACK U!
cas answers back (stunned) : WHAT?
sonny threw a punch into casper's face. casper got hit on the jaw slightly as he moved back.
omg. all this happened in front of all the parents and small kids that went with us on the trip. so it was chaos then. the two boys shouting, parents shouting and trying to stop them. me, kai and daryl didn't expect sonny to be so rash and actually confront casper like that in front of everyone. so after all this drama, went to the plane then arrived s'pore around 3am? hahhaa. yeah yeah. took a cab home alone and thats all.