is this christmas?

its christmas. but i'm not at all excited. totally different from the annual excitement of christmas. woke up and went to the gym with my dad and cousin. dad signed me up in this course in the gym. hopefully he'll help me to build my body. stayed at the club for awhile more after gym. went to play pool with my cousin. then got home around 1. rest at home for awhile before meeting leon at kembangan mrt with my cousin. was going to meet andrea, macus and zhengyi here later. but realise later that macus and zhengyi couldn't meet us. zhengyi had to do his homework and macus dont know for what reason. i dont know y zhengyi does his homework on christmas eve. so me, leon and my cousin walk the streets. me and my cousin was looking for a bag. so went to fareast then to heeren then to pacific plaza. haha. poor leon. had to walk so much with us. got the bag later at pacific plaza. then went to walk around again. till around 8? met andrea. had a had time meeting her as she lost her phone. so we used pure telepathy to communicate with her. haha. she brought emily along. so the 5 of us decided to eat at billy bombers for dinner while we're at fareast. went there then ate. the food just sucked. the christmas menu. sucked. big time. and they over-priced it. after dinner. went to meet macus. then some unpleasant incidents for leon. dont want to talk bout it. so cause of the unpleasant incidents. spent extra time there before getting to andrea's place. went there and slack at the pool side. by that time, there was only me, my cousin, leon and andrea. so sat there a talk. cousin performed some breakdance to entertain us. haha. sat there till 2am. my cousin fell asleep on the basking bench. haha. cze me leon and andrea were talking things he's not sure of. so after that went home with my cousin and leon. took a cab back. got back then we played worms on the com. lols. quite fun though. then slept around 5am. that was my christmas.

i never expected it to be like this. i was always hoping to spend it with u. but i know u cant.
my heart still hangs in there for u. believe it or not. doubt it or not.