another day that seemed so hard to past.

couldn't sleep well last night. its been going on like this for the past few days. i just cant close my eyes and sleep peacefully. problems always react like a snowball for me. they comes together, or they just get worst. so i couldn't sleep well, i couldn't eat well too. just feel like vomitting after every first bite. i dont feel like doing anything. went for bball trainin at 3pm. got there, warmed-up, then tried to be focus. i know i have to be focus, i know the tournament's coming soon. i know i cant be behind time. i know my form have to come and maintain. played 3 on 3, didn't play well. i played like shit. nvm. ran double suicides. it just suck when u know nothing's good coming. u dont know why u're doing this and that. u hate to force a smile when u feel like crying. went to 85 to eat with qiangsen, wei xiong and zi qi. at least they're nicer to me today. had a long and nice chat there. took 17 home. thank you wei xiong for accompanying me. i hope u'll read my blog mitch. i know u wouldn't. but i'll just write so i'll feel better. this is not only to mitch, but to the whole team. sorry guys if i get solo sometimes. i mean i really didn't realized that till qiangsen told me. whenever, i'm with the ball on the 3-point line. i really get confident and it just boost. sorry if i rushed some offense and made you guys ran for nothing cze of my wasted attempt. i know i still have time to change. and sorry huiwen for that period of attitude huh. it really wasn't my day today. sorry guys. so i got home and i dont know what to do again. how i wish that u'll hold me in ur arms.