reaching high.

season's over. i feel i should renew some of my resolutions. i can look clearer at my future now and i know what i want.

mid-years coming, i want to do well again. i want emaths, amaths, biology, chemistry and core history to get all 1's. ambitious right? but its very possible to me. do well for my exams, and then no time to waste.

time for serious golf training. i should and must get my form back and prepare for inter-school. top 3 are my aims.

after that, i gotta build up a stronger body, more tone, more charm. hahaha.

i'm going to try to be a model. hopefully i'll be something special to them.

thats my aims for this june holidays.

well, in the midst of all this. i hope i can relate better with people.

i hope to get along better with my school mates during this holiday. catch up with my friends from other school.

i hope to improve for basketball and hopefully we can play for youth cup this year.

hopefully i can get along better with my family this year.

but still the most important is to get along better with my relationship. i want things to be better and then we can spend all the time we want with each other. hopefully we can meet up often. though i can see that its quite impossible already, but i can only hope and wish. i will do my part. maybe theres nothing wrong with u really, but i think i should reflect sometimes. i should just let u do the things u like. we should be like the past. being happy everyday, nothing to be mad about. just call and be elated just to hear each other and not worry about calling back. really, i should let u be excited to call back instead of worrying. so much so much have change. without us knowing, we actually hurt each other so much. i realised all these already, i hope u do as well. i really hope u'll stand by me. and so and so much have happened and change, its the same. i still love you my dear.

so this holiday, i should change to be a better friend, a better member of my family, a better player, and of course a better boyfriend.

just for you my dear.

my season. 2006

my basketball season.
i cannot deny that this team that i'm in has been one of the greatest thing of the year. actually its quite a good start for this year. though its almost half a year gone, but this whole process was long. the team been through many tough times, happy moments and some others which we didn't expect to happen, happened.

training has been wonderful, although it may be tough, but as long as someone puts in effort to complete it, the rest spurs on. i wouldn't say that everything has been nice and going in our team. of course, there were times we quarreled, tried to screw each other up on court and badmouthed about each other. but as i look back at all that, those were part of a team. without all that, our team would be weird, really.

i remembered last year's november. when we were told that mitchel could stay for another year, everyone was just relieved. the only thing we were worried of was that we couldn't communicate. qiangsen also stayed back for another year. so they're like the pillars of our team. back then, i can say that almost everyone in the team dislikes qiangsen. because he's violent on court, he's vulgar, he's demanding and many else. but those were the past. in the process of building our team, everyone got to accept each other gradually. everyone might not get to feel like this, they might find it insignificant. but i look back and well, its a good thing which i should tell everyone about it.

so we played many friendlies and when our team was almost ready. coach got us into the geylang serai cup. we won it. won it in style. well, the teams in there wasn't very fantastic. but they were still of standards of some teams in the nationals. that cup, boosted our team's confidence, enhanced our playing style and most importantly, got us to know each other's playing style much better.

east zone started. we got to the zone finals without much resistance though. finals, against chung cheng high, our first lost. i wouldn't say that we're a lousier team than them. but they just played better that match and i feel, they deserved the win. it was heartbreaking for me. i couldn't take it at first. i wasn't able to accept it. many people encouraged me. soon after a few days, i got over it.

time for nationals. first round draw, not too bad. won the first two and then lost the third to serangoon garden. our second lost. qiangsen got a deep cut around his eyebrows. so he had to stop around the start of second quarter. the team has difficulty on rebounds then and then lost by 22. we still played well.
second round. had cat high but still, it was a good draw. against cat high first and then lost by 20 i think. third lost. qiangsen couldn't play that match, so it kinda explains why the big lost. won the next two and got into semi-finals. that was our aim already actually. we should be pleased with that already. getting into nationals top 4 for b boys is not anything easy. even chung cheng got knocked out of second round. thats why i wont admit that they're a better team than us. well, lost semi finals to serangoon garden by 2. our fourth lost.i was super duper depressed after that match. because of some reasons. 3rd and 4th placing, against unity. could have won. but we didn't make it. so our fifth lost and our last time to lose. so 4th in nationals, our acheievement.

the season ended. i thought about many things. i looked back many times the past few days. i've thought about many things, many things. everything was just so fast. while in the process, we didn't realise anything. but when we look back, we should feel good and proud of ourseleves. this has been a great team to me, the only thing i've regretted, is that i didn't cherish all the times where i can learn from my seniors, especially mitchel. i told mitchel about this today, and i guess he felt good about what i told him.

i just felt like writing this.
4-weiyang
had been working very hard under-basket. though u doesn't seem to be any guy scoring big time in the first five. but he has always been our strong rebounder. without him, the games wouldn't have been that easy. always looking calm and confident on and off court, and that, sometimes motivates some of us.

5-qiangsen
has always been a joker off-court. never fails to bring laughter to the team. without him, the team wouldn't have been so much relaxed. without him, the team would have been worrying for days and nights about our matches. but because of his experience, we usually gets the upper hand of the opponent team. on court, a very serious man. though he wants the limelight, but its great to have a guy like that to be in the team. always been a threat to the opponent whether its offense or defense. our big man.

6-huiwen
though he may be quiet on and off-court. but never assumes that he is dreaming. i am sure and able to tell that he is thinking about many things. be in about our games, our team or our plays. i know he is thinking or worrying. although playing-time is not a lot for u, no one has ever felt that u're a nobody. u're still an important player in our team. never fails to encourage anyone in the team.

7-weehoe
i know its stressful this year for u. i know its tough. tough getting back your confidence. tough standing on your feet after every fall. but dont be on your own. everyone lends a hand to u. so never be shy to ask for help. look at the people supporting u. and the amount of people have u as their idols. u're still their hero. so dont give up. the team needs u next year.

8-mitchel
our pillar of everything in the team. he has been leading, motivating, bringing much laughter, fighting and the mist importantly, scoring hard for the team. everyone in the team appreciates u. i am sure many others who are not in the team as well. many of us gives u much respect because u deserve it. well, without him, we wouldn't be where we are. a threat to any guy, i mean ANY GUY on court.

9-junyi
i know u have been facing very similar problems with weehoe. lacking of confidence and find it hard to brace yourself up after each fall. but the same, everyone is there. so never be shy. u have always been important in the team. especially in defense. me and junyi has the same problems on court. we tend to miss our fast breaks. HAHA. always enjoy spending time with him, be in on court or off court.

10-wei xiong
captain of the team. always a responsible guy in the team. never leaves anyone behind. he'll make sure that he'll be the last. works the hardest during training, rans the most on court and the most modest. a perfect example for me to learn. knows whats right and wrong, that makes him a good captain. able to oblige to anything u need. that makes him like the most perfect and wonderful captain around.

11-k.c
i know height has been your problem this year. well, next year, we'll work hard together. another guy who lost confidence in this season. tends to be over-confident and full of himself in C div. but changed now. i mean i would still prefer the confident k.c on court. another guy who never fails to make everyone laugh off-court. great guy to have in the team.

12-zhao hao
i guess it was tough for him to adapt to things when he just got into the team. it was tough to accept him at first. but later, when he blend in, we laughed together and had fun together. he looks blur most of the time, but i know he tries to work very hard on court. i know he gets frusfrated with himself on court. he tried hard. so no one really blamed him for anything. our standing tall man.

13-rocket
has always been making people laugh. gets emotional now and then. gets little playing-time also, but i know everytime when u sit there. i know u want the team to win. i can see it in your face. i know u wish to help. we know u want the best as well. tried to encourage everyone also during the tiring time-outs. i remember that serious face during that serangoon garden time-out. i know u believe that we can make it. but we just fell short. sorry rocket.

14-zhi hang
always, always encouraging me. i should say the most. great guy to talk to. just makes perfect remarks and comments about certain things. and always end conversations with u, with a smile on your face. zhi hang i know u cried. cried in your heart when the season was over this afternoon. i know it was heart-breaking for u as well. u have been one of my greatest senior!

all in all, this team has played a very important role in my secondary life. the happy times we had was just too much. the times we went along with, was just too much, that when the season ended this afternoon, it was very hard to part with it. now everything has become history. regardless of how long ago this team would be, it would be a proud thing i can tell anyone in my heart. we played the maximum amount of matches any team can play in a season. that marks a great acheivement for us. i'm glad to be part of this team and played a good role.

the match ended. weixiong just fell on the ground. i could see tears in zhi hang. mitchel bended down and i know it feel heavy in there. everyone, everyone felt very heavy-hearted. its not because we lost, thats why we're upset. but because we just cant bear to part with each other. i wanted to cry, i felt like crying. but i refrained my tears of joy. a big big lesson in my life. if theres any chance we can play as a team again, it would be the greatest thing i would wish for again.
Dream Team. Anglican High B'Div 2006. marks an end.

its not that u cant cheer me up. but u just made it worst. dont tell me not to care because since we're already in top 4. its okay. it may be an encouragement. but it just doesn't help if u say it in that way. if we lose, i wouldn't get so upset. but do u know what happened in the match? do u know i was the cause of the lost? do u know that? do u know how awful i felt? instead of feeling that i want to win too much which cause to my upset. i just needed sometime with u, to tell u everything. but i get no chance. i really needed it. the call was comforting to know that u'll be coming. i laid on the bed and the game just rewinds over and over again. waiting for u to come, knowing u'll come, just gives me a consolation. times up. i waited, called, worried. no use. i knew it was going to be another disappointment. well, i got prepared. but the call came too late. it came with an excuse which i dont get it. i dont know why u told me a yes when u had your training. if u promised me, i'm not sure why u dont try to fulfill it. maybe u didn't promise. the phone call ended less than 1min. so i felt worst in there. many things i thought about. remember i told u something this morning? i just felt like that. i can feel people out there, giving me, telling me that anytime. anytime. but i dont bother. all i want is yours. even if its just 10times lesser than theirs. i dont mind. but things just pass and go my side. alast, that all i wanted vibration came. it ended less than 2mins. its not that i dont want to talk. but i just dont know how to start. to cry, pouring out to you about my game, or ask u about why u did this and that. i know its your excuse to shut that call up. well, it didn't help. if u're able to hang it up, study and do well for what u want. then good for you. if u get tired, frusfrated to do anything for me. then don't.

the whistle went. i bend down and i couldn't stop. i knew it was my fault. i knew it, team. dont try to tell me its not. anyway when it went off, it was all you. u were the first thing in mind. but i just got disappointed how u could bear and not worry about me and press the red button on the phone.

i'll just wait for another call.

my long wait. finally.

so we won Gan Eng Seng today. i started off already quite confident deep down in me. i did think about their players and visualise about the game. our players were a mismatch for them. so we stand much advantages. i thought about how i should go about in the game. kind of mentally prepare if we'll be losing in the game. prepared to do anything to just win the game. so it was quite dramatic for me. there were falls, arguments with the referee, 3-points, fast breaks and of course when i miss my shots. hahahaha. so we're into nationals top4. finally we got into it. i've waited 3years just for this again. i used to take this glorious feeling for granted when i was in primary school. everything is so expected back then. so having to feel like that again, it just a pretty feeling which is undescribable. thanks to all that came and support the team today. although u couldn't make it in the end, but its alright. though i really want to see u there sitting and cheering for me. but since u cant then its alright. well, the i love you before the match just lingered in my heart throughout the match with my fighting spirit. :)

we've walk a long long way. long yet we didn't realise. approx. our team played more than 30 matches together including friendlies. i just look back at all the games we played. (as i did record every game our team play) its just a different feeling and memory to each game. i still remembered having to know that mitchel could stay back and play for the team one more year. that feeling was just relieving. and having to train, play friendlies and fight on court with my seniors. i tend to take them for granted. my seniors are just great people. some never fails to make laughter in the team, some just never fails to encourage me time and time again. i think about it, i feel weird. i feel happy that we've come so far, yet in my heart, i wish all this wouldn't end. 2 more matches is all we can play together for. just 2 left. in my heart i wish that everything could go back and we can play together without worrying all this would come to and end. yet at the same time, wished that we could come to this far again. my only regrets of being in this team is that, i should have cherish every moment with my seniors, especially mitchel to learn from them. because i want to lead the team next year, i want to dominate.

although i know people like mitchel, qiangsen and wei xiong dont read blogs. but i just want to thank them a hell lot. well, because they taught me many things. many things that no basketball coach would be able to tell me. and even though it wasn't a smooth journey we've went through, but i know this is part of what every champion team would go through. though there were losses throughout the zonals to nationals. but i feel that no game is a game that is expected that Anglican would sure lose. there would always be a threatening percentage that Anglican can win. thank you guys. if there is any chance we can play together again in a team, that would be my greatest honour.

match update.

last match of second round finals.
17th: 7th apr, 3.30pm AHS vs Gan Eng Seng
52 vs 45
(16) 2-3's

match update.

second round of nationals.
15th: 3rd apr, 3.30pm Catholic High vs AHS
54 vs 34
(11) 1-3

16th: 4th apr, 3.30pm AHS vs Woodgrove
62 vs 47
(11) 3-3's

match update.

last match of nationals first round.
14th: 29th mar, 2.30pm Serangoon Garden vs AHS
65 vs 43
(17) 3-3's