enough.

thanks to poline that my blog is done. haha. so i'll reward her. i had fun today. we went sentosa in the morning. haha. i woke up early in the morning to watch tv. my favourite show. da tang shuang long chuan. some chinese show la. nvm. but wen i woke up i realise that its the wrong timing. as i couldn't get back to sleep, i stared into space. den left the house on exact timing to met andrea n pamela at tanah merah mrt. i made it to the train station exactly at 10am. but andrea was late. i still had to wait for her outside the toilet. that stupid girl. hahaha. yeah. den she was done and we went on to meet pamela on the platform. i told marcus and chonglin that i would meet them at 10.40am at harbourfront mrt. however, as someone was late. we met marcus n chonglin late. nvm. den we met at harbourfront n carried on to sentosa. we had fun joking n fooling around while walking. hahah. i lyk pressing chonglin's tits. hahaha. yeah. i'll skip the boring part. den we reach siloso beach. we went to andrea's favourite spot. den we camped there and the girls baked themselves while me, marcus n chonglin went to canoe. andrea was in while bikini and pamela in black. although both of them revealed like a man. me, marcus and chonglin managed to handle the torture n carry on with our canoeing. hahahahah!!(i'll be dead) say after 1 hour of canoeing, it started to drizzle n rain heavily. marcus was told by the staff of sentosa before boarding the bus that it would rain. and because he was stubborn. he kept telling me that it wouldn't rain for sure as it was dam hot upon reaching the beach. hahah. so he was proved wrong in the end however, he did not change his mind bout such coincidence. it rained den we decided to travel to town. main reason as we need lunch and i wanted to buy a sweater. we dropped off at somerset mrt n wanted to go heeren. on the way. i was slapped by marcus on the right arm. i screamed lyk a woman as it was hurting due to gym the day before. and then, pamela took the chance as i was finally lyk a woman, she slapped the left side of my arm. i just stood there helplessly n could only scream in pain.(i was sleeveless) den wen i stood up. chonglin asked me if i was alright. instead i slapped his tits again. i was sorry bout that. den chonglin grabbed my hand and we almost fought. forget bout that. i quickly walk towards marcus n slap his arm back. i couldn't help but swear. hahah. i was sorry guys. pamela too. shouldn't have cursed so much. yeah. den i dont know why i got angry. maybe i felt that marcus was unreasonable. i gave 'that' blackface. i didn't meant to spoil that moment. but after i chilled. i found out that it was unccessary to be so angry. so i'm sorry that i was so sensitive n petty. yup. den we decided to go to subway for lunch. it was only my second time trying their food. first time was at the airport and it wasn't a good experience. hahah. pamela and marcus convinced into going into the shop. yeah. so i went in and i was in a blurr. i didn't know what to order. pamela n chonglin recomended the terriyaki chicken. marcus n pamela choosed that so i didn't want to chose the same one as i wanted more varieties. yeah. so i choosed the cheese steak. it was great man! haha. yeah. the hungry marcus ordered a foot long of terriyaki chicken. he was crazy hungry i guess. he finished the food the same time as me. (mine was a 6-inch, half of his serving) hahahha. after lunch, me n andrea decided to leave first. i had basketball training at mountbatten CC at 7.15 with k.c, wee hoe, wei yang and lee yang. andrea needs a bath n she's going for a date. on the way back in the train, after andrea dropped off at tanah merah. wee hoe called and told me that because of the rain, training has been cancelled. i was bored n disappointed as i left marcus n chonglin in town. so after dropping at tampines mrt. i walk to take bus 21. on the way i saw angela. (my primary school friend) she was dressed sweetly and yeah. was great to see her again. i saw a bus n ran for it. i reached home n quickly took a hot bath as i was slightly drenched. then i went over to wei yang's place. we played NBA 2005 and DOTA together on the computer. hahahha. had abit of fun. den i got home n watch my favourite show at 9pm. after the show, i was bored again! so i decided to do this blog. i called poline for help. hahah. but after finishing the blog i'm alone again. all the stupid feelings are back. they suck. those feelings comes over me easily. insecurity and loniness. always standing a big part of me. i'm waiting for my phone to ring. n that name to appear. i miss you. can u just show me you love me? everyone has patience. including me. insecurity always overwhelm me. u'll never understand how i'm feeling. u're strong. strong enough without me. u can overcome all ur emotions and forget bout me. u can get on with your life. u can do without me. but i cant. i need you. i feel that i need you badly. be there for me pls. i think i wrote enough dude. pretty long for my first formal entry. yup. i'm a bastard.