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Well, well. First post of 2011!

Yes i did pass the last theory before new year begin and it felt good. I'll just do as much as i can before time catches up and in camp i go.

I got wasted on the very first day of 2011, is that a good or bad start? I didn't know that i did such embarrassing things, and i feel dam bad for being down so early that night! I mean i promised everyone to party all night but i was gone. And i found out i got cheated, i had more submarines than i thought. My friends cheated me into drinking them! But never mind, its over and maybe its good to let everything out. I felt much better at the spot, i know. At least better than how i feel now.

Developed the love for prawning i don't know why. Maybe its the many hours i spend just standing there with a rod trying to focus on small details, small distractions and movements. Maybe its because i try hard and i wait and at the end, i do catch something. Maybe its because i really like being in a world of my own, subconsciously able to think about certain things. Maybe its because i really love challenges. Some of it i realize we are slowly losing it in life. We always look at the big picture, forgetting to slow down at times. And at times, we realize how much the small details meant but its too late, we regret.

But one thing for sure is i really love the BBQ prawns. Sitting down with bros, chilling with no worries. I don't know when's our next opportunity.

Today i had the tastiest pancakes! I had this wonderful pancakes at this place i really love now, and every mouth of feeding myself i just felt so blissful and happy. And its really so yummy, its like you jizz on your pants with every mouth you take. Its a place i really wish i could bring you along with, to share this happiness.

Tomorrow is FFI, i hope i pass the medical. AND I PRAY THAT THERE IS NO BLOOD TEST. I scared pain plus i think i'll fail cause my blood is like red wine, 17% alcohol content now. So if take, i probably die. So i better drink more water tonight.

Off to my hometown Bangkok on friday! God, i really need this trip. I just want to get away from this place for a moment, and stop thinking about everything for awhile. My brain is just so filled up with thoughts, i am going bonkers if i continue thinking and worrying about dumb things. Just let me go, let me go and enjoy for awhile. I feel happy just thinking about my tomyum, padthai and singha the moment the plane touches down. And the massage i'm going for everyday, shabu shabu and all the shopping! It just makes me crazy!

No new year resolutions, because you forget about them after a month. If you truly have resolutions, you don't have to tell people about it. It should be something close to your heart you want to achieve, it should be an aim that on one can comprehend or see. Its a goal only tangible to yourself. See what i mean?

Things come and go, and truly after every up you go down. What comes around, goes around and around and around and around.. 2012 is coming, the world would end?

What does it mean to you when my text get to you? How do you feel? Because every time yours get through to me, you light up a special light in me.