One Shot One Kill.

I didn't make it again. and indeed, it is my last chance. and if i screw up, then all, i mean all of my efforts would have gone to a waste. though experience is invaluable, but that would mean that i cannot achieve my ultimate aim, and my plan failed. yes, i am pushing myself to the line. sometimes i ask myself whether i am an idiot.

But i have no time, to even think about all this. i only have myself now, to make this all right again. and i want to make this right, right on track.

One last try, and if i fail, i'll be devastated.

Why are people always giving expectations. stupid expectations. and they always assume for people to behave and perform they want people to. then just because they want things their way, they compromise in what they believe or the way people naturally are. sometimes i just want to say a big fuck you. i don't see a need to convince you, if you have doubts in me.

And why is time running shorter. i wish i had more time to spend with you. day by day, i am suffocated just to get what i want. but its okay.

Bangkok was fun with hoe and mum. food was as awesome as always. and mmm.. sometimes are so freaky true my hair stands.

Guess, i'll vanish from the world again. still miss you as always.