Ooh Ooh Baby,

oh precious love!

christmas was quite a blast after all! it got me so exhausted and now we're planning for NYE. its quite crazy sick. 

i love training, i realized how much training has already become a part of me. as much as training is supposed to be torturous, i feel weird when there's no training. i feel like i have nothing to do, i feel like i lost some purpose to life. ridiculous as it sounds, i really think this way. 

i love training because it keeps my mind away from everything. okay, maybe not all. but i really love it because i can work the other side of my brain and stop whatever the other is hogging on. 

i realized that it has always been my bad. sometimes i really wish to turn back time and make things right. the best part of it all now, i realized i lost you. oh well, well-deserved. 

its crazy how much i can actually miss someone. i miss you like mad now, and there's nothing i can do to contain all my eagerness to see you. fuck, i really wish i could do something to fly myself to you. i miss you, i miss you, i miss you so badly.

gym tomorrow, i make the best out of it. 

can 2009 be better?