Slides off..

if you can, please revelate everything to me. because it all seems unreal and unfair.

i know i need to face reality. well, i know i need to be stronger than you. please persevere no matter what, like you said, we'll go rock-climbing one day. i wont lose faith yet, i still cling onto hopes of miracle and hopes of us doing everything together. i know its still possible, as long as we have faith in each other. so no matter what, you cannot give up, because its not fair to you, not fair to everyone else.

it pains my heart, so bad so bad. to see you suffer and go through all these torture that no one ever predicted, ever foresee. its just plain unluckiness, and why? why? why? why?!! why has it have to fall on you.. why on someone who does not deserve anything like this. dont tell me even the One up above is jealous of someone so kind and caring towards me. it just does not make sense at all.

its impossible to tell me dont think so much and anything else, cause its stuck at the back of my head. but i do appreciate those who lend me a shoulder to cry over, a ear to listened to, those who took time off to come down for a visit, and even those who send a msg to cheer me up. i really apprecaite those concerns.

thanks for being there for me.

flying off to HK later at 1.30pm. hopefully everything goes smoothly..

i am going to pack my luggage and golf bag. should i go school tomorrow? or can i wake up in time..

i hate heart-to-heart talk. fuck it.