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It sucks, sucks big time to hear things about you this way. it isn't the way i wished, hoped and thought would have. but there is nothing i can do. sometimes i thought it was my fault, that it was my doing. and i always have a guilt no one even you could understand.

It always hurts when i think about it that way, and there is no way i could remedy this. you've changed, you really did and things would never ever be the same. i kept telling myself, but i always fail to convince myself. but i will try, i will keep trying. because i know i have to live with this for the rest of my life.

I don't know what else i would find out, but i'm certain there would be more that i would know. its not like it isn't bad now, i just hate to see it getting from bad to worst. i've come to thought that there is nothing i can do, unless you wanted to walk out of this on your own. i always tried to help, i always tried to do something. and i feel bad when i fail. but i was dumb enough to hope to see any change.

Regardless of what you become, or turn out to be, i will always keep that same image for myself. i will always remind myself of who i've dote on and thought of spending the rest of my life with. i do not want to think about the rest, because i shudder when i think about it. i just want to keep that little memory of you, always in me.