Nothing But You.

There is something about you that i cannot quite forget. it stays in me, somewhere. and regardless of how i try to forget, or how busy i try to be, you'll always surface somewhere. and i hate it, because it makes me feel like shit. of course there are happy memories, but after every smile you gave me, i would frown after. frown because there isn't anything to smile about now and frown because we've lost everything we used to share before.

These memories are the most precious of what you have gave and left me with. and i know nothing can take them away from me. each time i daze and think about you, its that same emptiness, the same guilt and regret that lingers in my heart. feelings that with time, have not diminished. its these emotions that proved to me the importance of you being around, and how much i wish time could rewind.

Its been a long time, and we've been through ups and downs. so much have happened and changed, and i hate to face it that its impossible again. i never believed in impossible, and the harder i try, the harder i fall. and the worst i feel. i know there is no right or wrong, but for you, i'll take the wrong because i feel pain when you are wrong.

Its so hard to look back, i hate to look back. i hate the fucking memories you left me with. i fucking fucking hate them. i wish i could just forget about you. the fucking memories made me go back to you, and these fucking memories made me want the old you. these fucking memories made me want to spend the rest of my life with you, only to know that since X years ago, it was already impossible.

I'm already tired, so let me have my sleep.