Opposites.

Not proud that i crashed my car.

Very proud that i achieved my first solo.

First solo is amazing, i still can't believe i did it. i guess the feeling of being alone up there would stay with me for quite awhile. the whole thing, i don't think anyone can understand how i feel, unless you have the opportunity i had.

And to make your mother, your instructor, your friends and yourself proud, is great satisfaction.

Its true, that satisfaction spurs me on. and challenge drives me. its sad, real sad when your chance is taken away when you finally chose to commit your life into it. they say, its not the end of the world, but i hate it every way when the most direct path cannot be of use. to hell with people who don't have enough faith.

Its funny how i see people. and when you talk like that you really show me what kinda person you are. you're hideous and you're the typical stir-shit person. and if you ever think that i'm so dumb to tell you anything, you can fuck off cause what i told you might just be shit for yourself.

Everyone is working for god's sake. why work so hard dudes. you are all going to army soon, please find some motivation to party! are you only going to regret not enjoying time when all your freedom is finally taken away from your bald head??

And its true. JC students are one hell of a mugger. during A's, everyone studies like a dog. when the A's are over, they find it weird to stay at home or to party everyday, so they find a job to tell themselves they are not wasting time away. but then again, why draw the line so clearly. life is short, and different opportunities come at different time. you will get your time to work your ass off, why chose to do it now when you can actually have fun. damn.

What if you live a life like mine? its like a show down everyday. and its always like you have to prove something to yourself. though i don't ever fucking regret what i've ever done this lifetime, i will do whatever i can to make things right. and even if i keep failing, i don't want to give up, and i know as long as i want it, i will never falter. and those that come and go, ain't not important to me.

Babe, because i cannot love you any less. and i can't love you any more.