ON.

I FINALLY GOT TO THE SKY TODAY. and i'm so fucking happy and proud of myself. it wasn't easy to finally get to where i am, but of course, there's such a long walk ahead of me. this is just the beginning of aviation and yes i want more.

I realized i had this silly smile on my face when i was up there, because it suddenly felt like a dream come true. not only for me, but for others and most importantly my mum. everything was so small up there. and i tried to find my car from the clouds and my car was smaller than a lego brick. so much for, YES MY CAR IS MY EVERYTHING and i want to build my life around it. suddenly, my car is nothing.

This is not my only realization. Singapore is such a small place, i almost flew out of it so many times. and then i look at the highways, the roads, the vehicles moving, the flats and houses, the reservoirs and gardens, the zoo, and people around with their activities. and i know that i am living in such a small box all along. i thought i knew a lot, a lot, but the truth hits me now. that i've been building my world around a place so small and i'm starting to chose to settle down. wtf, when i haven't even seen the world!

And i know that i'm lucky, very lucky. because not many people have the chance and opportunity to go for what they want. worst, some don't even realize!

Tomorrow's second flight, hopefully weather's good! and, hope the body's better in the air tomorrow. pray X34324091234750984375 i don't puke, cause fucking malu and they might kick you out of the course. and also that appointment with GM will go smoooth...

Time is short, and i really need to cherish my time with people worth my attention. i need to get things right! easier said than done, but yes i'm strong i won't give up easily!