a block of ice.

what am i supposed to be doing, thinking at any point of time now. why do i have to worry, think about, be naive, thinking about things that only i am interested.
its tough, tough to do so much at a time. i think i'll just study, study, study. anything else, i'll leave it to nature after exams. u're like a block of ice, i just cant hold and grip u. u're just going to melt away.

i miss doing things that are not near the examination period. i miss playing basketball, playing golf, hitting the gym more often, miss going out with friends, miss talking over the phone with many people, miss spending time with you, miss going out for meals, miss going out for pool, miss going out for lan, miss going out and have fun.
i vow to enjoy my holidays this year as much as i can, and i dont want to feel unhappy again.
you affect me, yet u dont know.
for all my misery, i can only blame myself. for all my disppointments, i can only look back and laugh at how foolish i was. for all my worries, its was just not neccessary. for all the hurt, i deserve it.

too many things to remember. i know its too many, and i dont want to force u into anything. just let exams be over before we start or do anything alright. right now, i can only assure u once again, and be there for you to lean on.