Right Back Where We Started.

its almost 5 in the morning and i still cant get to sleep. i've thought about so much, and yet i cannot find answers to all my doubts. if i cant live a fortnight like this, i don't know how you do it for months. 

i wish we could go back, to right where we started. i cant forget the first time i looked into your eyes, you were the most beautiful thing. and the whole relationship thing, that brought us together made me a brand new person. i didn't care about anything else, i just felt like i was building my life around you. 

i miss you, and you're still somewhere i know. i cannot force myself to believe how i would feel when i realize you're gone someday. i don't know how much more intense the pain would be, and i don't know how long more will it take to ever move on. 

so many dreams and promises, and we wish we could hold on and accomplish them. they're kept deep in my heart, and i know i'll never forget until we win it together. i wish i could guide you out of our life, and i hope you're more than half way there. 

i hope there's no more affection between us, because i never want to break your heart and see you cry. i miss your big o' hugs. 

PS. I love you.