Valentine or for Friendship?

Vday 09' was great! it was the usual sharing and expressing of love. flowers, chocolates, cards and letters and etc where all over the place. people smiling, people hugging, almost seen every part of every corner. the singing in the canteen was nice, now i know that there are a great load of people who can really sing. like JiaLing, Colin, Pris and MingXin. 

isn't it sad not to have a valentine on vday? oh well, live with it buddy. 

a singles' day-out with wx, mac, yc, cb and nat. NYDC at town and then settled at my place eventually. no booze, cause i fell asleep in town when i got home, sorry what a loser. and caught Benjamin Buttons, Brad Pitt is fucking hot. how can any girl resist him? 

special thanks to julynn for that photo framed up, grace for that little note, sijie sihan rach & huimin for the cupcakes, joan for the superman letter, clarice for an apple, my ESG and brothers who gave me a brother hug! 

all these definitely made my day. 

lucky game won on sat against Gold's, and that game tie-er shot will forever be at the back of my head. guess, its my best vday gift! 

i feel so sad, because my CT's mum past away before vday and she didn't come to school. vday was meant to be a happy day, a day for everyone to share love and to express our love to her. i wanted to pass her something to express my gratitude towards her, only to know something so sad happened. i wished i could do something to help cheer her up, to be there for her, when she always lend me a helping hand when i'm struggling with school and life. i guess, the least i could do is to turn up for the funeral and pray to god. my deepest condolences, Ms Lee. 

a lot of times, we feel disappointed, we feel sad. the only natural thing we do is to look for ways and methods to relive the pain we feel, to chase the sadness away. i realized, the harder i try, the worst i feel. pain and being sad is after all, an emotion. and no emotion stays forever. everything in the body is there to heal a wound, nutrients, oxygen. similarly, any wound would heal naturally with time. i guess, i just need to take bigger strides. 

i was disappointed when i saw you, because i didn't plan for anything like that to happen. i guess you're only right to do whatever you want. its your life after all, and i'm just a friend. you always put yourself ahead of everything, you forgot you'll get nothing at the end of everything. you aim high, but it seemed like you're likely to fall harder. 

oh well, it isn't the first time anyway. 

a sense of belonging weighs heavier than infatuation. 

i really put down my deepest honesty in what i've said. your failure to understand and appreciate drives me to hell. then again, i gotta live with it. 

i believe.. you dont need me, go ahead.