Rupture.
Prelims are over! are you people glad and relieved? or are you all getting more afraid, because the o's are just getting closer?
its both ways for me. i'm really glad that the prelims are over. because i was feeling stressed up because of the prelims, i couldn't sleep well, eat well and my mind's just twirling around. i was also nervous, because i realise i couldn't get down to work and revise for my prelims. i knew i was side-tracking. side-tracking from the hardworking and focused Julian in the beginning of 2006. i got carried away with the plans i had for myself initially.
now when the prelims are over, i finally have some goodnight's sleep back.
to be honest, i only managed to get myself to study 3days before the prelims when i was really afraid that i wouldn't have enough time to finish revising.
on the other side, i'm also afraid. everyday's a countdown, countdown to something we've all been waiting for these 4years. we did so much, all just because of this national exam. i really dont want to look back and regret. i screwed up badly for my prelims, and i'm discouraged. i really feel lousy about myself. i felt like giving up many times when i looked at my grade. i couldn't believe that i deserved that lousy grade. i felt shortchanged. i wish i could express myself better than this, and not being so pathetic about everything here.
but i really want to thank certain people around me, whom has encouraged me and showed me that its not yet to give anything up. Louisa, ChunYong, HuiWen, WeeHoe, Tracy and YingYing.
i just want to thank you all sincerely, because you all definitely made these few days better than it is.
everyone's just counting down to the o's. everyone only has this in mind. everyone seemed to forgot that its the one last month together. and after which, most would go seperate ways, and i hate to say this, but many are going to disappear from my life. this is sad.
i see many friends in class upset, feeling lousy about themselves. i read blogs, expressing their unhappiness with their results. to all these people, i just want hope that you all wont give up that easily, because the prelims is just stepping stones to the o's. take a time-out, its still not late.
most are going to pon-school tomorrow. sounds like a good idea? dam it is. actually school is dam boring now. all the papers are given back, and its just going to be revision. i'm sick of all these and i need to refresh myself. i'm taking a short break.
i promise myself i'll get back even stronger. and its good to know that someone will be behind you. good thing is i can see myself studying in a week time. one last sprint, i'll do my best.
its sad to see that things are this way now. maybe some friends are not fated to be. its never going to be the same, let nature take its course.
its both ways for me. i'm really glad that the prelims are over. because i was feeling stressed up because of the prelims, i couldn't sleep well, eat well and my mind's just twirling around. i was also nervous, because i realise i couldn't get down to work and revise for my prelims. i knew i was side-tracking. side-tracking from the hardworking and focused Julian in the beginning of 2006. i got carried away with the plans i had for myself initially.
now when the prelims are over, i finally have some goodnight's sleep back.
to be honest, i only managed to get myself to study 3days before the prelims when i was really afraid that i wouldn't have enough time to finish revising.
on the other side, i'm also afraid. everyday's a countdown, countdown to something we've all been waiting for these 4years. we did so much, all just because of this national exam. i really dont want to look back and regret. i screwed up badly for my prelims, and i'm discouraged. i really feel lousy about myself. i felt like giving up many times when i looked at my grade. i couldn't believe that i deserved that lousy grade. i felt shortchanged. i wish i could express myself better than this, and not being so pathetic about everything here.
but i really want to thank certain people around me, whom has encouraged me and showed me that its not yet to give anything up. Louisa, ChunYong, HuiWen, WeeHoe, Tracy and YingYing.
i just want to thank you all sincerely, because you all definitely made these few days better than it is.
everyone's just counting down to the o's. everyone only has this in mind. everyone seemed to forgot that its the one last month together. and after which, most would go seperate ways, and i hate to say this, but many are going to disappear from my life. this is sad.
i see many friends in class upset, feeling lousy about themselves. i read blogs, expressing their unhappiness with their results. to all these people, i just want hope that you all wont give up that easily, because the prelims is just stepping stones to the o's. take a time-out, its still not late.
most are going to pon-school tomorrow. sounds like a good idea? dam it is. actually school is dam boring now. all the papers are given back, and its just going to be revision. i'm sick of all these and i need to refresh myself. i'm taking a short break.
i promise myself i'll get back even stronger. and its good to know that someone will be behind you. good thing is i can see myself studying in a week time. one last sprint, i'll do my best.
its sad to see that things are this way now. maybe some friends are not fated to be. its never going to be the same, let nature take its course.
posted by julian low at 11:34 PM
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