one minute seems so hard to pass.

u dont have to see all this. i dont have to write all this. because i just write so i'll feel better. u can choose not to bother. but this is how i'm feeling.
i cant concentrate. cant concentrate on anything now. i can never do anything when i'm feeling like that. when i'm feeling helpless. i feel sour. i want to call and talk. but i just feel that things might just get worst when i try to make things better. i wont be able to do anything as long as something bad about us is stuck at the back of my head. this is one thing i cannot deny. and u're the only thing that is able to do that. since the start of class, till the end of class. i was just distracted. lost about what to do for u. i look around, hoping to catch a glimpse of u. but everytime i recall about how weak i was to u, i just shut myself away. and when i finally catch a glimpse of u, i felt lighter. when i stood before you and look into your eye, i just weaken. and even if i stand before u and had nothing in mind to tell u but just to kneel down and tell u how i much i wanted a hug. i forced myself to turn away and act like nothing happened. walking in the rain, was how much my heart was tearing. i looked around. just hoping not to shed a tear in front of my friend. i talked to him, nothing much. talked to him with no sense in a distracted mind. i just wasn't myself. looking at my phone countless times, browsing through your website time and time again hoping to know how you felt. but everytime i look, everytime it pierces through my heart, to realise that i dont matter. my problem i know. so just leave me for myself to solve my problem. u have your own problems. and i dont see a need for u to worry for me. in my mind, it was only u. and as minutes and minutes of this day passes, i realise how important u are already in me, in my life. u might just be losing grip on our love. but i've never held this any weaker. because i love you dearly. and i've never given up on anything for us.